The bus, the mall, and other fun things. =]

Song of the blog: What you waiting for_Gwen Stefani

The bus was an adventure. First we thought we missed it. Michelle and I went to Wilk real quick-like and saw an 803 bus driving away. But then the NORTHBOUND 803 came and it was nice to know we didn't have to wait another 15 to 45 minutes for the next bus. And so we got on, and we talked about what we would get and how much time we had, and when we should go back to the bus stop. Then Michelle says, "Instead of pizza we should go to Olive Garden!" "Yes!" So then we had to REplan to get off at the right stop, and Olive Garden is about 3 blocks from my apartment so we just decided to walk back. when we were done. And then we arrived at the mall. Sweet shopping. Oh how I love to do it, but oh how rarely it ever happens. I have been saving for this. I had given myself 400 dollars to get some vitals. Why so much? Because I figured the coat would be pricey, and I figured I would need a zip up hoodie, and then there is boots, which I thought would be at LEAST 50 dollars. Well, I didn't spend HALF of that! I was so proud of myself ! I even got some other things, like a pair of rainbow socks for 95 cents, an emerald green leopard print scarf for 7 dollars, the boots I got are SOOO HOT and they were only 32.95! And then the coat was 34, and shorts for.... 16? Something like that. I got a head band with a tiny little top hat on it for Halloween, a black skirt for 6.25, and a knit beret for 5. AND a pair of sunglasses from Zoomies for 12 bugs that I LOVE! The prices were random, but everything I got is WAY within my budget and SO CUTE! Everywhere I go I'm getting compliments today. One of Tauni's friends came up to us to say hi to Tauni, and so I stood there a little awkwardly as they chatted about things, and then he looked at me and said, "Is this your friend?" I think, "No. I'm just standing here staring at you guys like a creeper." But Tauni says, "Oh, Yeah! This is Ben!" "Nice to meet you Ben." "What is your name?" "Heaven." "Wow! Well I'm Hell." Then the conversation about how mean it would be to name your child Hell, and some it was really nice to meet yous and we separated. The point though is that he was very good looking, and I definitely would not mind running into him again. Yay life. =]

At Olive Garden we didn't want to wait so we sat in the "cafe." Same menu, same everything except no wait, and you are in a different part of the restaurant. I was wearing my boots and my knit beret, and my new coat, and I looked very debonair. Michelle looked stunning in her new coat as well, and we were stunning together in the Olive Garden Cafe eating salad and bread sticks and past. It was the mostest. ;]
Then we walked back, stopped by a friend's birthday party, she gave him the little present she had gotten, and we went back to my apartment for a bit. I was just going to walk her back to her dorm on campus so she wouldn't be alone, and then I realized that I would then be alone on my way home. Not good. So I texted good old Taylor Everret and asked him if he would walk with me, and it turns out good old Taylor has a car. I knew I was I like that man. haha, so he drove, and I rode along because, well for one thing Taylor is rather good looking, and for another thing they didn't know each other. All in all, a very eventful and fun night. =] But I didn't get some things that I need, like a pair of jeans, and a pair of gloves. My hands were turning into icicles when I rode my bike to school this morning, and I currently only have one pair of jeans that fits me. My weight has been doing odd things.

In other news, the Song of the Blog today, is pretty much my theme song today. I pretty much have it on repeat. It's an exciting time in my life. Yayness.

Snow, Cold, ew...

Song of the blog: In These Arms_The Swell Season

Why did I ever have the thought, "I wish it was winter, everything is prettier then, I'm prettier then, not so hot all the time, all good stuff." Was I crazy? It went straight from really hot, to snow weather! I woke up this morning and snow was everywhere. I did not want to hop onto my snowy bike in the snowy cold and pedel across the snowy ground to snowy campus, just to park my bike somewhere snowy and have it get snowed on! That does not sound like a fun time! So I rode to campus with Eliza and walked up the stairs of death. I swear, if I keep doing that I'm going to be sooo sore! This the second time in 2 weeks. Which is something let me tell you, because I usually avoid them at all costs.

I don't know what else to write about today. I'm taking the bus for the first time ever today with michelle. It will be an adventure. And we are going to the mall. I am going to SHOP! Well, kinda. I have a list of my vitals, and past that I have some budgeted money for the "OMGOSH I HAVE TO THIS!" So yeah, shopping. Yay life. =]

In Kanas, In Utah.

Song of the blog: In These Arms_The Swell Season

Couldn't find a pic of our stadium.

In Kansas when you go to a football game, you drive over to the small football field in your friend's car, you pay 4 bucks, they stamp your hand, and you sit on a hard concrete bench and watch your team get splattered all over the field. In the meantime you can walk down to the small concession stand and buy a hot dog and soda, or a frito chili pie, or maybe you just want a candy bar, and then you go back up to your hard place of seating and commence watching your team get killed. The half time show is the little 20 person band(maybe) walking around the field, and half of them are in middle school  In Utah when you go to a game you walk over to a full size stadium from your apartment in the rain. You are coming from a tailgate party that was inside with more sloppy joe meat than you have ever seen in your life. You stand for the first 10 minutes without even getting tired because everything is moving so fast. There are blue people walking around, and the field is really close because one of your friends had a ticket for the second row.You can't even tell the difference between the people on the other side of the stadium because it is so huge, they are a blend of blues, yellows, and reds. Everyone knows the fight song, and it makes you actually want to memorize a fight song for the first time in your life. Everyone cheers, and when YOUR team makes the first touchdown in the first 5 minutes, you go wild because oh my goodness your team may actually win! You take pictures of everything, because everything is new. And what do the concessions look like you ask? It's a shark frenzy down there. Everything from cheeseburgers to boiled peanuts is sold. It's like walking through a market, only everyone is wearing raincoats and has BYU face paint. The half time show is a real show. Singing and dancing and then the band gets out there with 200+ members with real talent and a full color guard. It is really quite good. 

In Kansas the first snow is a big deal. It usually brings ice with it, or maybe the ice was already there, and the snow just hides it so that you think it's pretty, but really it just wants to kill you. You can go sledding on a larger hill, or you can stay in and make waffles and hot chocolate with your bestest friends in the whole wide world. You can say hello to your neighbors and wonder why, in the freezing cold, they are STILL sitting on the rocking chair on the front porch?? And then you slip as you walk own the street to Colby's house and realize, "Oh, that's why." In Utah, first the clouds wrap around the mountains, and it snows on the tops of those huge things before it ever snows anywhere else. Then when it finally does reach the valley of the living, it lightly snows for five minutes, and if you weren't outside to witness the occurrence then you would never ever know it had happened. If you WERE outside, it still ruins your hair.

In Kansas, you can simply drive 5 minutes, or walk 20, to the outside of town and you can see forever. You can see so far that you can almost see your future out there in the distance. You can be sure of everything, you can see what will happen tomorrow, and see what will happen the next day. In Utah, the mountains block everything. Suddenly your life is shrouded with mystery and you don't know what is going to happen in the next 5 minutes, much less what will happen tomorrow. Life is a mystery, and you have to be prepared for anything to happen. There is no surety, there is no stable thing. Not even my breakfasts are stable anymore. I no longer sit at the same table every morning, eating the same bagel, with the same 3 little packets of cream cheese. I don't get on facebook, talk to Felix for a minute, or anyone else, drink my orange juice and people watch. No. That tradition is gone now. I don't even drink orange anymore. Never thought that day would ever come. I liked that tradition, but now I eat fruit for breakfast. I sit at the same table sometimes, but most days I don't have time to stop and eat. Even for that hour.

In Kansas I was a high school student, falling asleep in Algebra 2, and singing my soul out in choir. I walked to Colby's house down the street at least once a day. I was broke all the time. I was in love with a boy. I was a still a little girl. In Utah I pay bills once a month. I ride my bike to school every day, and eat and sleep when I have time. I still love that boy, but it's different. I walk to work once a day, and I work in a cubicle. I still sing my soul out in choir, but now choir is only twice a week. So I sing in the shower, or when I'm home alone, any chance I get. In Utah I get a paycheck of  about 200 dollars every 2 weeks, but it is still never enough to get everything I want. I'm not a little girl anymore, but I wish I was.

In Kansas you stand still.

 

                                                            In Utah you grow up.

Hungry

Song of the blog: Let Her Cry_Hootie and the Blowfish

I'm feeling very slow today. I want to walk slow, and want to type slow, I want to listen to slow music, I'm just feeling the speed of slow. If everything went slower, life would be much better. If everything much slower, then we all be more observant. We would all be much more.... happy? Content? I don't know, but I like slow.

I was thinking about it. Well, I have actually been thinking about this for a really long time. And the more I think about it, the more I think that married life is just better. And the more I think that if the man of my dreams comes and sweeps me off my feet tomorrow, I wouldn't resist. I'm not going to go and tap on the shoulder of every man I see, and I'm not going to be crazy and go looking for a husband. But, the more I think about it, the more I don't mind the whole being married thing. It doesn't seem all that bad anymore. And so while still being laid back about the idea, and SANE about it, I'm being more open to the possibilities of life.

And I'm sleepy. I want to sleep. I reallllly want a nap. I want to climb onto the skyscraper of my bed, curl up, and take a nice loooong nap. That sounds so very wonderful.

And it's thursday. That means that the week is almost over and the weekend is almost here. I love weekends. Weekends equal sleep. Yay for sleep.

Oh yeah, and I'm hungry. Yesterday I ate some cookies and a personal pizza. Today I have eaten a bagel. I'm hungry. Not starving, but slightly hungry.

Groggy, sleepy, slightly loopy. Did somebody drug me? Oh well.

This Is Why I Work Here. =D

Song of the blog: Come Thou Fount Of every Blessing.

I just received a call from a woman that is in the BGS program through independent study. She was the nicest lady that I have ever answered the phone to. It was wonderful. She had very specific questions, I took notes and then called the BGS office for her. Usually this would have been a lot of work, but I was happy to do it because this woman was just SO NICE!! She made my day. So then I called her back and had to give her the number for the BGS office because they take questions like her's at a case by case basis. So I couldn't give her any kind of answer, just a number so she could go tell someone else all about her situation again. And she was still so nice about it! She wants to make me brownies! She asked where the office was and if she could just come up and say these are for Heaven. I told her she could if she wanted to, I would be happy to take them. ;] Then she told me to call my mom and tell her she named me very well and that it fits perfectly. Best call ever. And now I am working at the front desk and every time someone walks in I hope it is that wonderful woman with Brownies for me. =D But even if she doesn't bring me brownies, I am happy just of been the person to take her call. yay life. =D

P.S. I am working front desk today with my favorite people. yay life even more!

Time

Song of the blog: Another Heart Calls_ All American Rejects

Time. It is something man made up to measure our existance, but why? Why must we always have deadlines? Why must we always have a time for things to end? Why does everything always have to end?

Maybe it's because I'm exhausted. Maybe it's because my deadlines for school just keep getting closer and cloaser together, and every time I think I have 'time' to breath, something else comes up and breathing is put off another day. It makes me miss high school. I didn't think it was at the time, but everything was so easy back then. If I wanted to walk down the street and see Colby I could. If I wanted to lay down and take a nap, I could. This often times happened in math class. haha But thats not the only reason I hate time. I also hate time because it never warns you when it's running out. Like the first lines in the song of the blog. "Do you remember when we didn't care?" "We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there." I want to be able to take the moment again. I hate all this planning and regulating my time. I miss the time when the sun going down meant nothing. It was exiting even. It meant the stars would come out soon and the fireflies would fly. Night used to mean magic. Now it just means I have less time to write my paper that is due tomorow. Now it just means I have to turn the light on. It just reminds me that another night of little to no sleep is here. Why does life have to change? Why couldn't I have just stayed in that place? Why couldn't the summer before I left have lasted forever? We had just graduated high school. We were free. Anything was possible. The moment was ours to take. Until reality set in. Until we were getting ready to start new lives. You're never ready for your whole life to turn backwards....

I hate time. I don't hate my life. I don't hate this school. I don't hate college. I just hate time. Because I can't get used to anything. I can't love anything, it will gone before I can really appreciate it. It will be gone before I can even finish asking God to please please please make it last. I want summer back. I want magic back. I used to have magic everywhere. I used to see magic everywhere, feel magic everywhere. Now it's gone. I can't find it anymore execpt in small moments. I love those moments. I can still see it when it rains. I can still see it when I'm at FHE laughing with my fam and not worrying about the rest of life. I can still see it in good people like my friend Britta. But these are rare moments compared to how the magic used to fill my life. I didn't even recognize it until it was gone.

Deadlines. Endings. Dear time. I hate you. I can't wait until you are gone.

A Very Good Weekend. =]

Song of the blog: Summerbreeze_ Emilliana Torrini

This last weekend.... Where do I start? It was the best weekend I've had probably since I arrived here. =]

My Saturday began with a trip to the temple. I went with my good friend Camille. It was so amazing, as the temple always is. So peaceful, and it made my whole day happy.

After that my building had our own little muggle quidditch match, which was very interesting to say the least. we had a myriad of candies that were named after Harry Potter candies and foods. Even BYU brownies dubbed chocolate frogs. Interesting. Fun. =]

And then my old friend Kenneth was in town, and we decided we needed to hang out, catch up a little. He picked me up and we went to the Malt Shop. Well, Kenneth... has changed... His personality is a bit more awkward than I remember... A lot more awkward. But still with his Kennethness. He is still my old friend, even if he is a little different. We talked about anime, and theatre, so it wasn't that bad. I'm going to have to carefully bring up mission plans though, some time in the near future.

After that I got ready for my date. =D I was feelin' great, and Tauni and I made a quick run to walmart so I could send some money to my dearest Kathykins. You might know her as Katie Anne. ;] Well Kathy is very sick and I owed her 50 anyway, so I sent her 75 to help her with the doctor's visit as well. I worry about her. =[ So she received that, and then we went back to my apartment where the guys were meeting us.They came, and Tauni was introduced to Jaden(her date) and Dylan(my date) and then we talked for a while about randomness and then we were off to the Haunted Forrest.

The guys insisted on opening our doors, which I did not mind at all. And then when we got there they both insisted on paying for us, which I felt bad for, but I tried to just be thankful for such sweet guys, without thinking of how much Dylan had just paid for me. He is great. So then we went in. I was putting on a brave face, but it looked pretty legit, so I wasn't really sure I wouldn't be scared. The workers were already getting in my face. They always chose me!! We got past the line and entered the Forrest and it wasn't very long before I was hanging onto Dylan. He was a gentlemen and didn't push me off, which I was grateful for because I would not have enjoyed going through that thing alone. hahaha I don't usually get scared, but that was when the haunted houses/trails were being worked by my Physics teacher and my friends. Out in corn fields that we drive past every day. Not is a legit forest with things getting so close to you that you can smell their bad breath. And they always went for me!!!! There was one part that I suddenly became aware that instead of holding his arm, we were holding hands.... hm.... ok, so I switched back as sneakily as possible to his arm, and walked on through the scariness. But it happened about 2 more times. I don't know why. I don't even know if he noticed. He didn't seem to mind, because it was me that kept switching back to his arm. I didn't want to let go of him though because truth be known, I was so scared! There was one room in the haunted hotel part that was just hanging clothes everywhere. You could see anything but clothes. If I didn't have Dylan's arm I would have gotten so lost! We saw the woman who was scaring people, and we tried to keep track of her but then she disappeared and we were like, "Where did she go?!" And then she was suddenly right between us! We both screamed and I practically jumped in his arms, it was very Scooby Doo. None of it was awkward, I just didn't know if the holding hands thing was ok or not. I was fine with it. ;] Just didn't know if he was. Plus, he's my FHE dad. This needs to be platonic. hehe..... I don't know. He's good looking though. And then he was sneaky again and paid for my food when we went to Arby's too. Very much the gentlemen. And then again he is also turning in his mission papers in December. So proud of my Dad. hahahahaha I'm going to stop thinking about it, so that I don't complicate everything in my head. Blah!

So then Sunday was goo because it is Sunday is always good. But also because for sacrament meeting we did a hymn program. It's like fast and testimony meeting, minus the fast, and instead of testimony you go up and give your fave hymn and why, and we sing a verse. Very cool, the spirit was so strong I basically cried the whole thing. "I just have so many feelings." Also being the chorister, I had to lead every song. So I was moving my arm the entire hour. I thought my arm would die, but I could have done it all day. It was amazing. =] So much fun. Then after church I went to choir which was awesome, and then home. Quinton, Sheldon, and Michelle were there for our traditional Sunday Dinner. The other Michelle and Killi were missing, and they were missed. We had curry, spicy and delicious. yay life. =]

So that was my weekend. Very eventful, and very good. The best of weekends. I dread Monday though, and now that it is almost over I am very happy. I won't be going to Student Development though. That class is SO pointless. Once a week I have to listen for two hours about nonsense. Last Monday I had to listen to two hours of How To Listen. Yes. So today, since I have a ton of reading to do, a test to study for, and a paper to at least start on, I will be skipping the most pointless class of all classes. This is my one skip for this class that I will allow all year. I shall treasure it. I hate this class.argh.


BUT! FHE IS TONIGHT! We are carving pumpkins. So excited. YAY LIFE! =D

Soooooo...... life. Yeah

Song of the blog: Kiss Me_New Found Glory

Life, gotta love it. I was in the shower this morning, of course that is where I do my deepest thinking, and I realized that I got 5,500 in Pell Grant plus my 750 ACG Grant, so why did I only get a little over 2,000 in the mail? I talked to the student advis center and he said that I will still have to make monthly payments on my housing, so I can't pay it all at once, so my total grant check should have been almost 5,000, after only paying what I owe for my back housing payments. Unless it had gone through and payed for the whole year, then I should have that money. But then I remembered that it splits it into semesters, and so this all makes much more sense. yay life. I don't have missing money.

So past my shower thought, today I had no music class and I liked sleeping in, but I miss that class, it is my flavorite.

In other news, construction, it stinks. Never marry a construction worker, because no matter how hard you try your house and all the vicinity around him will smell like BO and feces. And you can't go to visit him and take him out to lunch on his birthday with the kids, (Or without ;) because you will have to put on a hard hat before you go in, and then if the smell doesn't kill you and the kidos, then the dust will. And then you will have to be content to go to MacDonalds and drive out everyone with the smell.

My toe just went numb. Random.


So the shopping thing today is a no go. Everyone but Tauni made different plans, leaving me to walk maybe, if I'm that utterly determined to go to the mall. And it is tempting actually. My shoes are falling apart, and I need some more clothes that I can wear to work. I also need a new backpack because mine broke and I'm just borrowing one from Julliana. It looks like I'll be borrowing it for another week, because I am not spending the money to get one at the bookstore on campus because they are way overpriced.

Can't wait until 5 o clock. At that time the weekend begins, and other than some reading for two classes, I have NO HOMEWORK!! Yay!

Money to Dates to Blahness

Song of the blog: nothing at the moment. Sorry

So my day has gone...... well it has gone. My bike handle bars broke and i don't know how to fix them. I woke up early to write my paper for american heritage, and then didn't have time to print it so i am turning it in tomorrow anyway. And I have gotten my paper for Anthropology done but it is about 500 words short so I am going to try to add somethings but I would need to add another page to make up for it. My best bet is the rewrite, that way I can talk to my T.A. more about the goods and bads.

In other news, I cashed my checks today. It was wonderful. I have money now, to save as I please! yay life!!

AND now I am leaving work in 10 minutes. That's also wonderful. yay life mas!!

yes. life. goodness.

Ok, so the date thing. Tauni and I have a double date this weekend. This weekend will be great. Friday: shopping with my girls!!! Saterday: morning=temple with tauini Night:Date with Dylan my FHE dad, Tauni is going with my FHE bro Jaden. Yay family! We are going to a haunted house. We may go to Friday the 13th, the really amazing one in Salt Lake. It's 20 bucks a person, and WORTH IT. Or we may go to one that Tauni's Dad can get us in for free or discount. Which would be great. =D YAY LIFE!

Doritos

Song of the blog: FUN_Spongebob

Why is this my song? Because I just read Ashley's blog and it's stuck in my head. Might be for the rest of the day.

Why is today called Doritos? Because I am eating Doritos between calls. Yay life.

Today has been an OK day. My cord to my laptop is missing and I still need to finish a midterm paper that is due today that is on my dead laptop and nowhere else. This is why i own a jump drive. Why didn't I save this one paper onto my jump drive???? I'm kinda freaking out. I went to my last resort and texted my T.A. He is not just good looking, he is also very helpful. He said I can turn it in tomorrow for 5 points off. I thought it would be a zero. He is a lifesaving hottie. Thank You Heavenly Father for sending this man into my life as my T.A. Now can he ask me to dinner? hahaha

What else made my day OK? Music 101. Today I was sitting there doing some reading for my favorite class Anthropology. *cough* lies*cough* and a very good looking man came asmiling and sat next to me. I kept reading for a little bit, I can't seem too eager you know, and I had my ipod in so it wasn't rude of me to do so. When we had about 5 minutes before the start of class, I take my ipod out, and begin to put my book away. He immediately  speaks, "Good book?" I answer sheepishly, "It's for a class." "Oh, so it's a great book then." Sarcasm. "Haha Yeah." We exchange names, he fawns over mine a little just like everybody does, and I can't remember his name now.... Ethan? Maybe. I feel bad for not remembering. hehe But he had some great eyes. Really dark blue. Nothing in comparison to Sam, but really great. :) In conversation we learned that he served his mission just one mission away from being in my area. He walked me to my next class and the whole way he tried to figure where Parsons would be without looking at a map. I need to learn more about my own state, I was almost no help. But he figured it out. It was really flattering and kinda fun. He was all in all a really great guy. Glad to of met him. :)

And so today I can finish and print my paper, turn it in tomorrow, 5 points off. I also have to watch a movie for American Heritage tonight or tomorrow and write a paper on it. Considering my lab is tomorrow and it will be due, I will watch it tonight, get no sleep, write the paper. The movie should be interesting, so the paper should flow pretty well. I wish I could say the same for my Anthropology paper. I don't think it flows very well in the first draft. I'll have to revise it and make it better now that I have some extra time. Phew!!!

So today I got a call from this lady that was SO MEAN! It is really annoying when people blame us for the postal system's mistakes, but this woman took it to a whole new level. She was just crazy. I'm glad I am so good at keeping calm, because on the inside I wanted to punch her through the phone. People who are reading this: IMPORTANT MESSAGE!!!!!!!! IF SOMETHING GETS LOST IN THE MAIL, IT IS NOT THE ORGANIZATION'S FAULT!!!!! IT IS THE CRAPPY US POSTAL SYSTEM!!!!! FED EX EVERYTHING TO PREVENT THIS, IT MAY COST MORE, BUT AT LEAST IT WON'T GET LOST. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE.

Julliana Bullen Basically Gave Me over $2,000 Today!!!

Song of the blog: Island Of Misfit Toys_A Sunken Ship Irony


So Happy Today Man!!!! So Happy Today!!!!

So today I rode my bike to the building like 6 miles away to get my ID. They are open, and I walk in, and it's the wrong office. The correct office is allllllll the way in south Provo........ So I call Julliana. I am desperate. I MUST get this ID NOW. She is a saint, so she comes and we put my bike on the bike rack on her car. She drives me over, I fill out the paper, I go the counter. I need to things of mail with my name and address. I only have one. Wonder. Happiness. UGH! Juliana (the saint remember?) drives me to the apartment and we find another one. Thank goodness for insurance. We go back. And everything goes smoothly from there. I was just waiting for something to go wrong. Anything. Because it has to right? My life can't go smoothly that would be absurd!! But it did! My picture is horrible, but it's on a piece of paper that is good until I get my plastic one in. I'm at work right now, but as soon as I'm done I'm going to get my check and get a bank account and a debit card. I would get a checkbook so I can keep track of it better, but nobody even takes checks anymore. The office I work in doesn't even take checks I don't think. And so a debit card I will get.

And so I get to work late, but it's A OK. I get on the phones because I forgot I was proctoring, I just get an international call when Heather the Wonderful comes and tells me I'm proctoring. OH! So I try to finish up, but it's a long call. So Justin says he can stay until 1:40. I can't go sooner, says Heather. So I take more calls. At 1:30 I take what is supposed to one last quick call. It turns out to be 30 minutes of explaining every minute detail of our website to a lady that takes notes and makes me repeat everything at least three times. Her son will be taking college courses and she can't look at a computor and figure ANYTHING out by herself. I mean it NOTHING. She writes down everything, misunderstands me when I say that next to the name of the textbook is a link to the BYU Bookstore where she can purchase her son's books. I have to repeat that, explaining EVERYTHING about the link, color, design, EXACT words. "Is it left, right or underneath the name of the textbook?" Do I click on it? "It is to the right." "Yes ma'am." UGH. I looked to the ceiling and asked Heavenly Father to bless her with intelligence. She needs it. I get off that call and rush to log off so I can go proctor. I'm soooo happy because after that call I'm like dead. My throat hurts and I need to not see a phone for a couple hours, or the Independent Study website. Ashley, my beloved, beautiful, coworker lets me have her shift. She is also a saint. I'm seeing a lot of saints today. yay.

So......... JOY!!!!

HAPPY MARSHMALLOW DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mondays......

Song od the blog: Nothing. All Day. My Ipod was dead when I left this morning._Sad day today. Very Sad Day.

I hate mondays. And not in the cliche, "I hate mondays." sense. Not JUST because the weekend is over and it's back to classes and work. I HATE mondays. I leave my apartment at 7:40 am. I do not return until 7:00 pm. I walk into my first class at 8:00 am. I do not walk OUT of my LAST class until 6:40 pm. I HATE MONDAYS.

I had an appiontmet with a financial aid counseler today. He told me about loans. I'm going to take the subsidised(spelling?) loan because the interest doesn't start building up until after I graduate. That is about $3,500.  I am now looking at some jeeps. The Audi was just too impractical. A jeep is me, and also a lot less impractical(spelling?) (I'm an English major. hahahaha)

Also, I went to the student services desk this morning and this man named Sam helped me out. Sam has gorgeous eyes. Sam's gorgeous eyes looked right into mine. He smiled a lot. Sam has a gorgeous smile. Sam made my heart stop for a second a few times. Sam made monday a little better. I will probably never see Sam again, but if I do, that will be a joyous day. Ah yes, Sam.

The meeting with Sam reminded of the waiter at Olive Garden named Danny. Danny's British accent was more delicious than the food. Danny boy. So gorgeous. He had great eyes too. Not as great as Sam's though. Hmmm.... Sam and Danny. Smiles. So many smiles. =] =D I love boys. <3

Joy. =]

Isn't The Day Wonderful?

Song of the blog: Lonely_Yael Naim

It is 12:02 am. A new day only comes once a day, and It's wonderful to experiance. =]

Miraculous.

Wondrous.

Happiness.

Freedom.

Flight.

Love.

Clostraphobia In Sunday School

Song of the blog: Der Letze Tag_Peter Fox

There is seriously something wrong with me. I don't know what. But I was sitting there in Sunday School in church, and I was thinking, "Good lesson. The Savior is great." And then someone closed the door that was letting the air in. And then I started feeling claustraphobic. I have absolutely no idea how to spell that, but I was feelin it. I tried to brush it off and pay attention to the lesson, but I couldn't. I started feeling even more and more closed in until finally I pretty much jumped up and ran out of the room. I went to the bathroom, and felt a little better, but I knew if I went back I would just feel worse. So I went outside. That was a LOT better. I was walking and then I just kept walking and I walked right back to my apartment.... I immediatly changed and emailed my stepdad back about cars. I feel like a horible person. But I just could NOT do it. I have NO CLUE why. I feel so much better now just sitting here listening to Peter Fox. I don't know whats wrong with me...

In other news, I have an appointment with my financial counsler tomorrow morning. We're going to talk about numbers and loans and funt times will be had. I'm planning on getting all the loans I can this year and using it to get a car. There is this lovely little 2002 Audi that I want... but it has the potential to be very expensive, although it says NA for a price. Mileage says 75,516. I have no idea if that is good or bad to be ompletely honest. But she is a beauty. It would be so fun nameing her. And I can totally see myself in this car. She would get some sexy name and be mah best friend. =D But that is in my dreams probably. Unless I can use my amazing bartering skills to get her for at least 4,000. If not 3,000. Sounds pretty far fetched to me. I might as well buy a house for 7,000 while I'm at it. =p Here is a link. http://www.automotive.com/2002/65/audi/tt/base/utah/provo/234771563/113/index.html?Query=|City=Provo|RegionLong=Utah|VehicleUsedDataLookup=1|VehicleUsedIncludeCarsDotCom=1|VehicleUsedIncludeSuperPremium=1&NumListingsPerPage=15&PageNumber=1&sortBy=VehicleUsedPrice&sortAsc=True&index=8

I love this little baby. But I will probably never have her.


It is 4:46... church is almost over.... I want to go to choir, but I don't want all the questions of, "Why did you run out so fast?" "Are you ok?" "Did you get sick?" Blagh...... But I'll go. I feel better now. And I'm not going ot just avoid church now. Thats ridiculous. =p

I'm falling asleep, eventually, any moment now........

Song of the blog: The sound of my stomach trying to deal with all the carbination I chugged tonight. hahahaha

So tonight was epic pong night again. Great times with that pong table. I am getting pretty good at this too! When me and michelle play we are Undefeated! Quinton did beat me on that one on one game though. Bumb. We played for the whole can too! I hate gingerale. I don't even know if I'm spelling it right. Thats how much I hate it. Quinton tried to 'help' me drink it. That was messed up! And then the guys had to leave the dorms at 12, so we gals stayed to finish the game. It was so much more fun! Epical! For fruit loops! Eliza made this amazazing ninja shot. And then michelle and michelle, the duo, ended up winning. It was awesome. Janelle and Eliza were dancing trying to distract them. it was just waay fun. And then about 1:00 am we all decided to go to Denny's. It's like a ritual now. Wondrousness. I crave it like no other. hahaha Denny's hash browns and eggs and pancakes and sausage and bacon and ham and wonder and happiness and water!! We take turns paying, and every time we order two lumberjack slams to split between everyone, and waters. We all eat and we all are happy.  ;] I love it!! But of course there is still that part of me that misses home. I'm thinking about leaving next year, but I probably won't. I'm practically getting payed to go to school right now. Actually, if I do the math, I AM getting paid to go school here. hahaha

I don't know what else to write about. haha I'm so dead! I wanna sleep!

Oh! I guess I could write about my Anthropology T.A. ;] I needed to make an appiontment to talk to him about our big paper due on Wednesday. He suggested Saterday. Hmm? Ok. So we met in the library. It was great! I think I have one of those idiotic crushes. Except e isn't old, nor is he married..... And he is so sexy! It's Woah! But he isn't into me, that would be crazy. hahaha He's my T.A.! Aren't there rules against that? It's just an idiotic crush. But a girl can dream right? ;]

BYU Football

Song of the blog: Football game_The T.V.

So I just ate some pizza and french fries. I sat on the couch. I watched the game. I'm still watching the game. I hink to myself, "So BYU, 30 minutes of awesomeness and then you're done? What was that!" They were 4 and 22. Really? blah. yes. blah.

And so now I'm still here, and the score is 14 (BYU) to 7 ( San Diego) And so there is hope. A shred. A tad. A little. Small, but hope. It's half time, so now our guys will come out of the loccer room refreshed and ready to kick some Califorian B.U.T.T. I'll pray for their destruction. ;]

Luv Mah Gurlz!!!

DEAR FAFSA, I FREAKING LOVE AND ADORE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Song of the blog: I don't even know right now, I am WAY TOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MY FAFSA MONEY CAME IN!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THOSE PAYMENTS THAT WERE STARING ME IN THE FACE ARE GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE IS SOOOOO GOOD RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU DEAREST KINDEST HEAVENLY FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS THE GREATEST GOD IN ALL OF ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THROUGH HIM, EVEN I CAN PAY FOR SCHOOL WITHOUT DEBT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOYEAHYAYNESSOHMYCOWIAMSOHAPPYICAN'TEVENTHINKSTREIGHTICAN'TBELIEVELIFEISSOAMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




YEAH!

Pictures of me and my peeps all up in hur. ;P

I never put pictures on here

Even though that was my original goal

So hurs some.

I made this one. =]

This is the Provo Temple. =]

Amberly! I miss this chick!

Sami!!!! Oh Sami Richens I love you!!!

Caroline Adams. Idn't she cute?

My beautiful Colby Darling!! I missssesssss you!!!!!

Gageth Gageth Gageth. Gage.

This is a horrible picture of me, but it's SUCH a good picture a JP. ;]

These are more pictues from my graduation. It's pretty obvious which ones are and which ones aren't. The one above with the group is me, Billy, Felix, Colby, and Joe. And the other one above is Mattias and Felix. With Parker in the background tryin to be like he in dah picture. =P

Classic Silly Mi Hermano.

Matthias wanted to try on my dress... =]

RUFUS!!!!!

Colby and Kinsey.

Colby and cereal.

Nick.

Felix. I think this picture is b.a.

Colby and Rocky's children. =]

Me having waay too much fun in a shop in Coffeyville, KS.

Penguin. =D

Billy. This was the last time we made mush together. *sniff*

Olivia. Isn't she darling?

Mr. Kindall. What can I say more? I miss the man.

Best old couple evar.

My darlings!!! Kathykins and Colby!!!!!! <3

Me, Kathykins, and a mirror. yay =]

Gradumacatuan. Don't cry dearest Colby!
And the one on the very bottom is Cara. =] I miss the Dodd Fam!!!!!!