First Day Of The Firstest Kind

Song of the blog: The Hum Of The BYU Background_The Students Who Are Also In The Wilk Building With Me (And the guy on the practice piano)

I have just had my first class. It was amazing. We began class with a prayer, and then we discussed the syllibus a bit. And then we discussed The Book Of Mormon. My religion class rocks! And now I have an hour before my Music 101 class starts. I'm so happy!! Life is so good right now, and I love it!!! =D I'm sitting here, and I have achieved everything that I set out to achieve. I have new goals now, I am on the next step of my life. There is so much openness and anythingness in my life. I could get up, walk out this door and fly if I wanted to. God has given me so much, and I am so fervently thankful to Him for the life He has so graciously given me!

The piano guy stopped. Sad face. It was beautiful. Wait no, there. He started again. Actually I'm not even sure if it's a he. I shall take a looksee..... It is. It is a piano guy. A really tall piano guy. I swear everyone dwarfs me here. hahaha But I love being short. I want to get some breakfast. Om nom nom nom.

Happiness!!!!!!!

Sundays are best, oh yes! They be.

Song of the blog: Samson_Regina Spector


So today was my first day at my new ward. Eventful to say the least. Swedish Pancakes with my roomies this morning, and then church at two o' clock. Church was wonderful. And I'm famous. :) I have always loved my name, but I swear today I seriously fell IN LOVE with my own name. =D Everywhere I go it's like everyone knows me. I'll have paparatzi following me to class next. hahaha I was locked out my apartment for quite a few hours today and it didn't even matter because like 7 people were all gathered and talking, and once they got over my name a little bit then conversation just flowed and it was so great! I met a guy from Brazil, and another guy from Orange County. And a guy named Ammon.(I can't make up a name for him, his name is too cool.) All very cute. I was in church today thinking to myself, "Ooooooo! I love my ward!!! I hope that one is my home teacher!!! Oh! That one said he plays the guitar!" It was ike being in an art museum with only masterpieces. And they are all some kind of engineering major, so they will all have money one day. =D So Great! But I have an 8 o' clock class tomorow, and then constant go go go go go go until my last class at 5-6:40. So I shall be late for FHE, but thats ok. :)

School Starts Monday, Give the Prize Of Dread To Heaven Virtue....

Song of the blog: You Make Me Smile_Blue October

And so my school year begins. Ah, the college life. Where it is non-stop go go go, and not a minute to oneself. I've found myself screaming lately, "Stop Stop Stop!" I am the kinda of person that needs a minute to breath. If I have a resourcful day, then I need a minute to say, "Good job Heaven, now have a glass of orange and watch some T.V." No such luck lately.

My job is great, I love it honestly, though most would want to die. I am in the front desk, customer service department. I am expected by all callers to know everything about everything. I remember seeing my mother call customer service lines, and calling them idiots. i am now the idiot. haha My training is intense, but I'm remembering a lot of it, and I'm taking some hard-core notes. I love my coworkers. They are so fun, and they really do try to help people. Even the ones who blame the program for the wonderful(:p) American Post Service losing their assignments in the mail. I hate our postal service. It honestly sucks. I've had so many important things get lost in the mail...

In other news, I went on another date with Dean. Stargazing, again. And he kissed me. And then I didn't hear from him for 3 days. And then last night I got tired of it and  I just texted him and told him whats what, and he said that it was this constant band practice, and I said Bull. Only in a nicer way. But still Bull. And then he said that he had been thinking. Well, so had I. And I was prepared to let him down, and then he said he prayed about it and he thinks we should just stay friends. Hahahahahaha  That made my job easy. I didn't mention that I don't even want to be friends with him. hahaha You can't kiss a girl, and then ignore her for 3 days without her being pissed. Thats how it is. And anyone who says three days is the rule, they are full of crap. You call the next day. Idiots.

And so I begin school, single the way I wanted to. Life is good. :) I love my new apartment. It's technically smaller than my last one, but it feels bigger. And I have my own desk. And this time, it's me who is the messy roomate. I haven't even unpacked my stuff. Haha I've been juggling my whole life the last couple weeks. Yikes right.

The visit with my mom was wonderful, I got to spen time with my little wonderful sister. I got to walk her to her first day of 3rd grade. And while she was saying, "Sissy, you can go now." I was holding back tears. I still remember my first day of 3rd grade. She is growing up waay too fast for my liking.

In other news.........

11:40pm

Song of the moment: I'm Not Your Boyfriend Baby_3oh!3

There was no other news. I got up, and left. hahaha I can't remember why, but in the time I wrote that and now I have walked campus to make sure I know where all my bulidings are, I have made and ate dinner with my wonderous roomies, and went to dance. I left the dance when they started playing Justin the Beaver, and went to the Comedy Night thingymajig. It was funny, excepts for the little 30 second excerpt of the Miley Circus song. What is the obsession with these small children? The Beaver looks like he's 13, and the Circus? Really? My little sister went to her concert for her 8th birthday. We're in college. Maybe in class we're not really learning Anthropology, maybe we're working on our colors and numbers. I feel bad though, because when the beaver came on, some of my best friends were like, "This is mah jam!!" and such. And I didn't say anything, I just pretended I needed some water and went to the comedy thingymajig. I didn't see them again. .lol. I feel bad, but I was... out of place. :p Not the kind of party that I'm used to. haha The dance was at least crowded. I like it when you have to dance your way through a crowd when the space your going through is barely inches wide. When the bodies are so close together you can breath, and move, and the music is so loud that everything but the movement becomes impossible. This was not the party I went to.. But that would be my kind of party. Church tomorow...today hahah, starts at 2:00 pm. Carazy late. I'm used to 9:00 am church. But at least I can sleep in. I'm going to neeeeed the sleep. My monday classes are crazy. Plus work. It's like a constant nostop day. Ahg!

I am tired. Morning: J-Mama (my roomie) is making breakfast for us. It shall be amazazing. And also what is amazing, sssssssssssssslllllllllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!

A Slice Of Letting Go, And A Few Tears To Mourn What You Left Behind.

Song of the blog: Samson_Regina Spektor

This song is precious to me. I can't explain it, but it is. It just has so much.....muchness. hehe

This blog is about Jimi. And it's for me. So readers, read not if you don't want some sadness. It's happiness too. And a bit of light. But sad. Deffinitly sad.

Today I wrote an email. A sad email. But a happy email. As the song says, he was my sweetest downfall. When I was with Jimi, I cared about Jimi. Which isn't bad as long as long you care about yourself too. But I didn't. I didn everything to make him happy. I needed his smile like a crack addict needs crack. As long as he was smiling then the world could end. I would have peeled grapes for him. But when it ended, I took a look at myself. I didn't like it. I had become so unimportant to myself. I still took care of myself, I still took care of my life. But he was more important than all of it. I didn't like that. So I changed. I changed in a big way. I thought about myself more. And I liked that.

Now I have been talking to Dean more. And the more we talk, the more I like him. The more I can tell that he really likes me. I think he really cares about me, even though he hasn't said it. I think this is all new ground to him. I love that he wants to take me a castle built just for me, and give me everything I've ever wanted. But I kept thinking about Jimi. I kept thinking, but what about how much I love him? But part of me will always love Jimi. It just comes with the territory of falling in love. So today I let myself let go. I wrote an email, and I cried, and I listened to Samson over and over. And now I feel better. I feel like life is wide open again. Like anything can happen, and I could go outside and fly to Paris if I wanted to. Or maybe I'll just go eat some waffles with nutella slathered all over them. :) I love this feeling. And my heart isn't broken. That happened whn Jimi and I broke up. This is different. This is healing I think. This is what it feels like to be whole again I think. And I like it. :) I'll never forget Jimi. But now I have this new adventure to go on. It's called college, and maybe another one might be called Dean. Who knows what may happen? Maybe I'll throw a dart at a map and just go. I can do anything.

A song to end: Us_Regina Spektor

Elevator Adventures

Song of the blog: Das Zweite Gesicht_Peter Fox

I'm sitting in an elevator at a hotel. My mother and stepfather have gone to pick up my sister dearest from the airport. I failed at writing anything yesterday, but my excuse is that I was packing and stuff all day. Which isn't true, but other than the gospel, what really is?

I'm eating ice. I grabbed the ice bucket and my laptop, went to the 3rd floor, filled the ice bucket, sat in the elevator, and I now commence my adventures. :) I stopped pressing buttons, so the door has stopped opening, and so I'm probably hanging in some shaft. Oh it just moved. Maybe someone will press the button, and then find me here sucking on ice and writing a blog. How funny is that? But for now, I hang out in elevator shafts. I think that sometime during this adventure I will go the front desk to eat a cookie. ;) Maybe I will make conversation with the young clerk. Maybe I'll find out his deepest darkest secret in the lobby of a hotel at 11:something at night. And we will walk away one friend up in the world.

Or maybe I will sit here and tell you about how last night I saw Saterday's Warrior's for the first time. Hahahaha, that was a time!! It was so funny. And then we watched the making of the movie and that was even funnier! There were some heart pulling moments though. That little girl was just too cute for words! And when his sister died, aw, it was just such a moment. Side note that isn't really a side note: Dean was there. Stargazing Dean. But nothing more has happened. I don't he likes me, but it's his loss really. I mean, I like him and if he asked me out again, sure why not? But I'm not going to chase after him when there are so many other fish in the sea. Thats his job. He can chase. I don't do chaseing. And then there was that text. I said I had a really good time on thursday, guess what he says? "I'm glad you like stargazing so much. Goodnight." Oh really? Well then Mr.Dean, I guess it was just the stars messing with my head. Ha. And then he texted me today, wanting me to go sing hymns with everyone. Normally I would be excited to. I LOVE to sing! Any chance I get, whether in the shower or in a chior or in some group just messing around, I love to sing. But it was him. Dean. So I said, "Oh thats nice, have fun." And I was at dinner with my mom and stepdad and little demons. I love em to deaf. So I might not have gone anyway. But still.

It's all a moot point now anyway. I'm spending the next 10 days in Elko, Nevada. Tomorow will be full of shopping with my seester. And I'm going to have a blast. Especially on Tuesday when I go see Fernando. hahaha I can't wait to see him!! And I'm going to bring my Ipod and my laptop so I can get music from him too. I should have brought my blank discs. But I didn't. Those would have come in handy. But alas. Well, I think I'll move to the lobby now. Who knows. ;D

11:13pm
In the lobby. I left the ice in my room. Got a little chilli. hahaha I don't fancy a cookie at the moment, but this chair is a bit more comfi than the elevator floor. I don't see me and Mr. Clerk having any deep conversations, he doesn't seem the type. But maybe I should let him know there is a light burned out the elevator? Hmm. I wonder if he would mind if I turn up my Peter Fox? Maybe when he gets done with this little business call. hahaha This channel they have playing low in the background, not so nice. Music edumacation. Even if I only educate the walls and the night owls. :)

Hmmm flashing lights in the breakfast room. It's pretty big room. if I wasn't so comfi I would go explore. And probably get myself kicked out of the hotel too. Which isn't so nice, so I'll pass. Still pondering telling him about that light. it looked so lonely there, all dark while the other lights were all bright and stuff. Practically mocking the poor dear.

I decided somewhere in the elevator shaft though that this place isn't so bad. It's pretty nice, and the cooler actually works. My toes are freezing. Maybe it's warmer outside? I'm too comfi here to go check. In other news, I had Olive Garden today for the first time ever in my existance of life. It was good. I think the hype made it seem more layed back. My stepdad read the reviews aloud before we called, and there was one review from 2005 just raving about this amazing waiter named Tido. So I asked if Tido was working. The lady looked so confused. it was so funny. And of course, as I'm looking at beverages and I think to myself, new place, I'll try something new! So order this lemonade that I've never heard of or tried. It tastes exactly like the lemonade I always seem to order everywhere we go. With strawberry slices floating in it and everything. I love it, but I fear that I have reached a usual. I try to stay away from usuals. In the last year or so I just decided that getting the same thing every time is so boring! Life needs to be shaken up every now and then. So instead of coke, buy a sierra mist! Mix it up, or turn into a usual. I would rather not be a usual. Thank you. So I think I will stay away from lemonade, no matter how new and scrumptious it looks on the menu. ;) Yay for life!

I'm tired. I think I'll be packing up now and be going to bed. It's 11:30pm. Wait a second.... the music in the background turned off! Could it be that he realized that the oldies but goodies station just wasn't as cool as my Peter Fox foxiness i have going here in this cute little lobby? Maybe. Maybe he's supposed to turn it off so late at night. But still. The silence is good. I slowly turn up the Fox.... Slowly. Like cooking a frog. Except not. Because cooking a frog is gross. This is better. This is creating another Peter fan. So I change the song to one of my favorites. Lok Auf 2 Beinen. Yay. Nah na na Nah na. Rock it Peter. Rock it.

My Best Day Ever 3000

Song of the blog: Pink_Aerosmith


So as you recall from yesterdays short drop in message. I HAVE A JOB! Wooo! Well I am here so very early in the morning (hahahaha) to tell you that my day only got better. ;D If I could bottle this day and sell it, it would be Best Day Ever 3000 and make me millions!


So there I was, sitting on my couch watching Bourne Supremacy, chatting with Jimi, painted toenails because my dear, wonderful neighbor Kacy came over and we were doing nails. Great fun. Then my phone rings. Unknown Caller. The ISO comes up like that sometimes. So my heart stops. it could  be a creepy caller, or the verdict to my survival. (Intense right?)  Turns out fate lovours me. :) I got the job, and I can start after I get back from staying with my mother wonder on the 25th. =D So then I go down to campus, tax forms and financial aid. My roomate Melanie gives me a ride there. Well all the offices are closed because of Graduation. I walk back to my apartment. It's way hot. But I am STILL on top of the world! I call Tiana and we agree that a celebration is needed. I walk the rest of way on the phone with my Dad and brother dearest. When I get home, I write my short blog. Tiana arrives a la mode. We eat ice cream. Yummmm. Then we go a swimming for the last time in the pool of Raintree Appartments. Because today and tomorow I will be a packing and a washing and a packing some more. Which I should be doing now, but thats ok. And then I see my good friend Tom and he has just come from his college graduation, still wearing the cap and everything. We run from the pool to Mr.Tom and congraduate him. then we go back and swim for a bit. We then decide to go to Tiana's house and watch a movie before SYTYCD comes on. The finale!! Well, we can't decide so we watch an episode of the Office. It's about to come on when Tiana gets a text.


"Hello fellow Frisbee players how are you fantastic! Do you like the smell of adventure? I don't know do you like the smell of a high speed chase through a wall of defenders to find an undefended area in the endzone? Of course you do. Swan dive for the best catch of your life. Do you have what it takes to play ultimate Frisbee? You decide. (timpview thursday at seven pm be there)"


Hahahaha! Funny play off of a great commercial! I did not want to go. I reallllllly did not want to go. I'm the kind of person that needs to do hair and a bit of mascara at least, just to go to the grocery store! I got out of the pool and stuck my hair up in a bun. That does not make one ready to go play frisbee with a bunch of guys who could potentially could be really cute! But Tiana was insistant. We must go. So I did my best to make myself presentable and off we went. It turned out to be a lot more fun than I thought it would be. I caught the frisbee a few times, and I guess I actually can throw a frisbee ok. Who woulda taught? I wouldn'ta. (Thats a word. Yeah. :p) And yes there were cute guys there. Yes indeed. And once it got dark I thought I saw a firefly, it turned out to be a shooting star. And guess who told me about this meteor shower? One of those cute guys. I'll name him....huh, I honestly don't know what to name him. hmmmm..... Dean! Dean, of course Dean. How did it not come to mind earlier! Goodness me!  name shall be Dean. Well this Dean is a very roamntic sort of person. I noticed that first off when he started talking about stars. He informed me of the meteor shower and said he really wanted to go star gazing. I agreed that it would be a very fun time. We continued to play. I didn't see anymore shooting stars during the game, but he did. It was harder to see with the lights of the playing feild. And I'm rather blind anyway. Then he asked me if I would like to come satr gazing. It sounded like a group thing, but I thought to myself, "I'll go alone with him too, I've never seen a meteor shower before." The big group of us kept playing until about 10:30pm. Tiana had to go home, and nobody else wanted to go, so it was just me and Dean. :) Which was alright with me. haha So he had to go and change and such so Tiana drove me home and I ran around to put make-up on and I should have changed my shoes! But then he called and I explained where I live and he came. He even brought blankets, which was very thoughtfull of him. We went up to the canyon, to one park where there were no good places to sit. So we went further up the canyon to Southfork Park. Found a good spot, layed out the blanket and sat. We moved around a bit to get comfortable. It was freezing! We hudled and watched shooting stars and talked about everything! It was absolutely perfect. =D Then we were laying there, talking and staring up at the stars. And what else would happen but the sprinklers would come on? Of course they did right? So up we go, running for dry land. We find a dry spot and continue conversation and laughing and hanging on to eachother for warmth. It was seriously cold! Did I mention how very very cold it was? Well, I'm not doing you readers justice if I didn't mention how very very freezing it was. And wet too. The sprinklers made sure that we were all very cold. But we layed there anyway. Watching huge shooting stars fly across probably the most star filled sky I've ever seen. And I lived in Kansas. There are a lot of stars in that sky. I just didn't pay enough attention I guess. But this was amazing. Truelly amazing. And he talked about how beautiful the stars were. And he meant it too!  He didn't say any funny pick up lines, he didn't try to pull anything because it was dark and romantic. It was all just real. Just us laying there, and talking. And we talked about everything! I told him things that I have only told my closest friends! And then I thought, "Why did I say that?" I just felt comfortable enough to tell him I guess. :) The sprinklers attacked us several times. But we still didn't leave. We were there until the sprinklers had taken over the park and most everyone that was there was gone. There were a lot of people. You could tell that a shooting star was really cool because the "oh!"s and "ooo!"s would be louder. We had a little system theory going with that. There were some funny characters around. I think there were two moments though that I was just amazed by this Dean. One when we were talking about books. And he not only read Jane Austin's Pride and Prejudice, but he LIKED it! He said it made him laugh several times, and his favorite character was the mother. WOW! I was blown away. And the second moment, probably the most impresive, was the moment that he totally could have kissed me. It was all there. Oppertunity was knocking. And he DIDN'T. He didn't kiss me! I was amazed. Every other guy I've ever dated would have. I was so impressed! But the time came that we did finally leave. It was 2:30 am, about. He dropped me of with a sincere smile and a, "We should do this again sometime." 

I'm not sure if I'm quite smitten or anything. But I do like him. And I think there is a possiblity that I could really like him. but for now, we had one really good date. And I'm happy with that. :) I wonder how soon guys call here in Utah? Everything in the Utah dating world is so different than it was in Kansas. hahahahahaha I should go and pack. I really should. I have so much to do that it's carazy that I've sat this long to type all of this out! I have a trip to get ready for!

Money Money And Luck Is A Lady!!!

Song of the blog: Shadowboxer_Fiona Apple

I got the best call in the whole wide world this morning! I have a job!!!! I now work at the Independant Study Office at Brigham Young University!! I start on the 25th when I get back from Elko!!!! So fate has turned out to love me! Who knew?!!! Life is good. Life is grand!

Soccer and a little bit of the boys. ;D

Song of the blog: Pumpkin Soup_Kate Nash

"I just want your kiss boy!" ;) I love this song!

Anyway, today was much more eventfull. :) So Tiana and I know this guy that texts Tiana every week sometime, when there's a soccer game. And every time this happens, we go. Lets name this guy Dane. Now Dane has a friend that I'm going to name Sam. And Sam. Lets just just say that Sam is C.U.T.E. Way cute. Soooo cute. I've met him but twice, and every day my flirt light is bright and on. Gosh he is cute. And he flirts back, this Sam. We flirt it up. But he doesn't ask for my number. Not yet anyway. ;D One of these times, we'll exchange numbers. And we'll go out. One of these times. hahaha But for now, he is just a waay cute guy that I flirt with. ;D

In other news, RS activity today. Good food, good company. Sadly had to leave to go play soccer with the guys. It would have been fun to stay though. Still, soccer was fun. I didn't get beat up this time. Last time it was at a different place, with these hard core people. I got a bloody nose. Woo. It was still fun though. :) I love playing soccer.  

In still more news, very soon I hope to be in Elko, Nevada. My mother dearest lives there with my stepfather and my sister. And my stapfather's kids who go back and forth. I've started talking to an old dear friend who I will name....Fernando. :) He'll enjoy that. Anyway, we haven't talked in years and it's so exciting to get to talk to him again. And he will be in Elko for a few days that I will (hopefully!) be there. We've been planning all this stuff to do and it will be sooooooo fun! If I get to go. If fate loves me, it will tell the girl who will hire me that I can start later. If fate hates me, then the girl won't even hire me. hahaha But if fate loves me but is having a bad day then the girl will say you have the job, if you start on the 16th. The same day that I'm supposed to leave. She said in the interview that is when she wants to start training. Sad. :( But! Getting the job would be wonderful either way. It's kind of like better and Bestest. The better is I get the job. The Bestest is I get the job, AND I get to go to Elko to see everybody! :D I REALLY MISS MY LITTLE SISTER!!!! I will name her Miniona. It means favorite, or darling. She is 8 years old, soon to be 9. And I love her to absolute death. I got to watch her grow up for 4 years. Now I'm lucky if I see her once a year. And now that I live in Provo I'm only 4 hourse away! But with no car, I still can't just pick up and go see her when I want to. It's like losing a limb, and never getting to go visit it. Painful right? Right. It's simply depressing.

Jimi was getting on my nerves a little bit today though. Sometimes it seems that he thinks I just sit around and mope over our break up. Like if I say the wrong thing he's going to give me a "It's time for you to just move on and get over me" speach. So Annoying. I'm doing exactly what he's doing. Moving the heck on. He lives on the other side of the ocean for goodness sakes! There wouldn't be a point in moping even if he lived next door. Maybe he wants me to sit around and miss him. Well I'm not. And I'm not going to. Sure, sometimes I think about what used to be, and I sigh and think, "hmmm..." But he probably doesn't even do that, so whatever. I'm just like any other girl trying to move on with her life. And believe me, when guys like Sam and Fernando are around, it's kinda fun. ;D

Schedules, movies, and a theory on the L word.

Song of the blog: Whatever is playing in the background of the movie I'm watching. Notting Hill

So this has been one of those days where I think, "If I had a blog, I would have nothing to write about today." Well, now I DO have a blog. And I'm now going to commence trying to sqeeze some juice out of my day.

I had a job interview yesterday. Hence the job interview entry below. But today I went to see my scholorship counsler to talk about changing my schedule. I wasn't sure the best way to do it. But now it's changed, and I have 4 hours of work time every week day. So I emailed the girl that did the interviews and now all I can do is wait. Then I walked home and Katie Ann called me. I love that girl. ;D But goodness it was hot outside! And not even any sprinklers were on for me to walk through. Dreadfull. I love walking through sprinklers. I also love walking into my apartment with the air conditioning and taking off my sweater that I was carazy for wearing and going to my bedroom to scan a copy of my schedule to email to the girl who interviewed me. That last part was only enjoyable because I am so very desperate for a job. And now I'm on my third great movie of the day. I watched Barefoot In The Park with my roomates. Then I watched The Illusionist with my friend Tiana. I've never seen it to the end, and I did today. Excellent movie that is. Now it is one of my favorites. It was mind blowing! Or maybe I'm just easily amused, but I loved it! Now I am near the end of Notting Hill. And this movie is a classic. I remember sitting on the couch watching it with my mom when I was like...13 or some small age like that. One of favorite quotes:
"Happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat."
Classic. :)
He is now begging for her to stay with him, and now they are just staring at eachother. :) And romantic music is playing in the background. This is all so fake, but I love it. That will never actually happen. In reality, even if the guy does realize he has made a mistake and wants you back, you're lucky if he fights for you. Cheers to you lucky girls with dream guys. Not only that, but I'll never have my own press conference so this scene specifically is impossible. hahaha

Love is tricky I think. You can fall in love. You can get caught up in the beauty of it. You can give your whole heart. You can fall asleep watching movies with them and wake up with their arms around you. You wake up a completely different person I think. There's something about falling asleep with someone that changes you. I don't mean anything physical. I just mean putting in a movie and waking up as the credits roll even. Or hours later and finding a blanket to take back to the couch so the both of you don't get cold. Thats special. But after all of that. After fights, and making up, and getting through so much. In the end, it just ends. No matter how much you wish it didn't have to. In the end there always ends up being a whole ocean between you that makes it impossible. Figuratively speaking of course..... And then you have to just get over it. You have to pack up all those feelings, all the pieces of yourself, and move on. Find someone new. How do we do it? All the time? How do we just pack up and move on? It seems so sureal to me. But thats why I'm only to get married once. Marriage isn't something you say, "Hey, lets give it a go." It's promising to spend the rest of eternity with someone. Thats not a little thing. Thats kind of on the huge side. So I'm sitting here watching Notting Hill, and I think to myself. "How do they know? How do they look at eachother and just know that 5 or 10 or 20 years from now, they will still love eachother more than anything else?" I'm sure the romantic music that is always in the backround helps a little. But I don't have that to work with. hahaha But it's not something I need to worry about right now. I'm sure the characters in the movie live happily after. I'm sure that they fight and slam doors. And then slowly open the door back up, apologize, and go to sleep loving eachother. Me, I'm going to start by getting a job. And a paycheck. And paying for my half of the So You Think You Can Dance tickets. And getting through my first sememster of college. Right now, that is my life. Paying bills and getting closer to my career. Such is the life of Heaven. Peace out.

Pushing the button over and over will not make the neon white walking man appear any faster.

Song of the blog: Zucker_Peter Fox

May I begin by saying that walking the streets of Provo, Utah is WAY different than walking the streets of Parsons, Kansas. In Parsons you can walk down the middle of the street and if a car comes up to you they will go around because they are probably your neighbor. In Provo, you press the button, walk between the lines, and walk fast. Or die. I learned that on my first day here.

My job interview went very well. I feel confident, as long as I can get my schedule changed enough to have 4 hour blocks of work time every weekday.

But the funniest thing happened. 11 o clock came around and still I didn't know where my roomate was. I had a time of freaking out. I was talking to Jimi on facebook and we were way worried. I called around, and everybody was working or out of town. I called the bishop and got the Relief Society President's number. I called her and finally someone was home. Then I walked into my living room and someone was sleeping on my couch. Who did it turn out to be. My missing roomate.... Chelsea. Who felt dumb at that moment? Heaven Faith Virtue. Me. But having my RSC Pres's number turned out to be a good thing. Because Chelsea and I were uber confused by the construction all around where we were told the bulding is. But I got there. And as I said, it went well. Then I walked home. Now I'm going to go try to pay some of my rent. H-girl out.

Job Interview

Song of the blog: Grace Kelly_Mika

Why am I up so early this morning? 2 Reasons.

1:My phone notified of a text my dear Katie Ann, and an email on Facebook from another one of my best friends, and ex-boyfriend, lets name him Jimi . Katie Ann is having a tough work day. And Jimi lives in Germany so there it is like 5pm. I've just woken up and he has informed me he's going to eat dinner. Crazy right? He was one of the foriegn exchange students at my highschool. We're still pretty good friends. It's a little complicated sometimes....

2: I have a job interview. =D I'm so excited and scared at the same time. Because, dear reader, I am poor. So dirt poor that you cannot imagine. My rent was only 45 dollars this month, and I'm still biting my nails as to how to get all of it payed. So I need this job. Any job. I would do anything that anyone would pay me to do at the moment. Ok..... not ANYTHING. But most anything. I would clean toilets. I would jump from airplanes. I would do their dirty work. I would fix roofs! I don't even know if I spelled that right at the moment. Thats how nervous I am. AND I just had to retype nervous from what I originaly typed, which was nerbous. My fingers don't want to type what I would like them to type. Ugh!

Well, I have my outfit chosen. I talked to my friend on the inside and asked her what I should wear. Business casual. Preferably a skirt she said. So I am wearing my darn cutest outfit. My cutest skirt outfit. Knee length of course, because I am a modest young woman. And I am a fast learner. And you are not my employer so why am I telling you that. I don't know. I'm nerbous. *chillzzz* 

The Greatest Thing In The History Of Great Things.

Song of the blog: The song thats playing on the DVD menu screen for Gilmore Girls season 7.

One of my dearest friends, lets name her Katie Ann, and I have just purchased tickets to the So You Think You Can Dance Tour show in West Valley, Utah. On November 4, 2010!!!!! Seats 12 and 13. Reserved for US!!!! I am so excited. This is my dream come true. I am going to breath Billy Bell's air! Oh my WOW!

Ok, I should explain. I am not normally a crazed fan. Being excited to breath someone's air. I used to mock those people! Until Billy Bell came onto the only show that I follow. So You Think You Can Dance. I was so sad when he was voted off of the show. He is a beautiful creation of God! I am not one of these people. But I just payed 57 dollars for tickets to see him dance. I am going to watch history be made on live T.V.!! With Katie Ann by my side! These are some of the best dancers in THE WORLD! It will be an honor to watch them perform!

Especially Billy Bell. Because he is the greatest thing that ever happened to the world of dance. ;D

I might even do what I've always made fun of people for doing, and make a sign. It may say, "You rock my socks Billy Bell!!!" And I may just buy some cute socks to hot glue to it. So if you are watching the tour and you see that sign, just know that it is me. ;)

Sunday Reflections

Song Of The Blog: I Know That My Redeemer Lives_I don't know who is singing. haha

I love sundays. Adore them. Sunday is the best day of the week. When God rested on Sunday, it was genius, pure genius. He really is all-knowing. :)

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am a Mormon. And proud to be one. I live in Provo, Utah. So this doesn't come as much of a surprise to most. I haven't lived here long though. I moved here about a month and a half ago. (Still haven't landed a job by the way. The economy is wonderful is it not?) I moved here from Parsons, KS. A tiny teeny town. But I loved it, and I lived it. I lived there for 4 whole years. Except the 3 months I lived in Greeley, Nebraska. I try not to think of that awful time though. hahaha I loved Parsons. It became my home more than any other place I've ever lived. And I've moved about 30 times in my life. I counted. I am thankful every day that my Heavenly Father placed me there. It was a great blessing in my life.

So just a side note. My legs hurt soooo bad right now. I went dancing on friday, and it was waay fun, but I can't even walk without this horrible limp. ew. But I my muscles feel tougher. Maybe I'm getting tougher. ;)

So today at church. Amazing. Like it always is. Since I joined the church when I was 14 there hasn't been a single day that I think, "ugh, church is boring." I LOVE IT. =D So I go, and of course the Sacrament is beautiful. It is such a sacred thing to be able to remake the covenants that you have made with God at baptism, every single sunday! It's like getting baptised all over again. You have the chance every week to be washed clean and start fresh. To be able to self evaluate and say, next week I'm going to do this better. Which brings me to the lesson that hit me the hardest today. Covenents. Making a covenent with the Lord. A covenent is a two way promise, but it's even more binding than a promise. I made the covenent with the Lord when I was baptised, when I accepted the Gospel as true, to always remember Him. To never forget what he has done for me, and still does for me. And He is bound as well. He has in turn promised to never leave me. He will always be there for me. And if I keep my end, and endure through this life, then I can have all that He hath. Isn't that wonderful? Now I'm not preaching. I'm just writing down my thoughts. This entry today is more for me really. You may read and comment. And I welcome any questions. But you don't need to believe what I know. I am writing because my joy that comes from this is soooooo great. I love my Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. They are the rock to my life. So of course I am going to talk about them on my blog. hahaha

I wonder if I have any readers yet.... hmmm... That would be kinda cool. To think that maybe someone I don't even know is reading this. That maybe they can relate to some little detail of my life. It's an interesting concept. So if you are reading this, please do comment. It would make this even more than it already is. :)

My notes in church today were so helterskelter. I really need to get a little notebook to write down my thoughts. But all I had was strips of a Brazillian Jiu-Jitsu club flyer and my hand. hahaha I would put up a picture, but my dear friend has it. I shall name her. Hmmmm..... Melissa. I like that name. I left it in Melissa's purse the other night when we went dancing. :) But after I get it back there will be a lot of pictures on here. I love to take pictures. :)

As a last note. It is 1:04 pm. The little time thing below is wrong. It likes the number 11 I guess. It did that last night as well.

Toodloo. I'll try to write every day. :)

It begins with a proposal.

Song of the blog: I'm Sensitive_Jewel

Hey there! I don't know why I've decided to begin a blog. It's 12:22 am and I'm feeling a bit random. I've always wanted to. And now here I am. Typing away, isn't it exciting? Just some information for you readers, I will change all names except my own. My name really is Heaven Faith Virtue. No joke. No lie. I'm not joshing you, I'm not pulling your chain. So now that my name is out of the way, I'd like to tell you a bit about myself. Play along please. ;)

I love to write. This comes from my immense love of reading. My opinion holds Jane Austin as the best author who ever lived. If you're reading this, I would love for you to comment and tell me about your own favorite author. And if I haven't heard of himslashher then I will look himslashher up, and tell you what I think. I love a good book talk. :) But I don't do spoilers. You won't find any here. So read on.

I love music. I love to sing more than I love to breath. And thats a lot in case you were wondering. So every time I blog something, there will be a  Song Of The Blog. It will be whatever I'm listening to at the moment I sit down. I would love to hear about anyone's favorite music too. I listen to everything. Seriously. Every.Thing. :D

I titled this blog with "It begins with a proposal." And that is because I was proposed to in the silliest way today. I enjoyed it. And I'm not engaged. :) It's time to name a friend of mine. Lets call him Mark. haha, he'll just love that name. But he asked me, if in 6 years I'm not married, if I would marry him. I said hey why not. Hahaha So yes. This all begins with a proposal.

So goodnight my wonderful, nonexistant, readers. :) I hope you keep reading actually. It's no fun without you. ;)