Every time I hear this song I think of memories. Memories of Spring Break my senior year of high school (Best spring break I've ever had. By the way.) Memories of Felix. Memories of old friends. That's what this song is about. Memories. And never forgetting. I just want to to take a break from laying out my stupid day to day life and talk about my wonderful memories. I have a great life, and I want to remember that, even when I'm having a bad day. (Could that bad day be today. Yes.)
I want to start WAY back. All the way, to my earliest happy memory.
1: Waking up in the winter time in the big yellow house on Bullion Rd. in Elko. I would run with my mom to the heater that was in the dining room under the table so we could warm up. I was so happy when we did that. That is one of my best memories.
2: I remember my first day of fourth grade. Mrs.Masketti. I still think of spaghetti when I think of her. She had this construction theme, and all the desks were clumped together with construction tape. We were going to construct ourselves that year, that was the plan. Our classroom was under construction. My aunt Lucy did my hair that day I think. A really pretty up do that I thought matched my shirt very well. Matt kept looking at me and smiling, and I glared back at him and he looked away. I hated that he liked me. Boys were so gross.
3: I remember playing on the playground and getting chased by Jeremie. He would pin me up against the gate and pretend that they were lockers and he was going to kiss me, I would kick him in the shins and run away squealing. He never did get that kiss. haha
4: I remember being obsessed with boots. I loved wearing boots. These boots went almost to my knees, sometimes they had butterfly little key chain-like things on them. I remember once I got very angry with Matt on the playground and I spun on my heal to walk haughtily away and I fell and scraped my knee. My boots protected the rest of my leg, but not my pride. I've always been such a clumsy little duck.
5: I remember Loving the swings. I would close my eyes and pretend that I was flying far away, and when it rained I would pretend to be on a ship that was sailing far away. I remember going deep inside myself and forgetting everything except my daydreams. Being far, far away.
6: I remember the Greek Mythology book. I carried it with me everywhere. They fascinated me. I could read every other book in that elementary school library and not go back to them, but that book has stayed with me even now. It was huge to my little self. It had pictures and stories and it just fascinated me. It made so much sense, because the world was so crazy, that crazy gods and goddesses ran it. I loved Aphrodite and Athena. I wanted to be a combination of them one day. Wise and beautiful and lovely. I looked up to them in a way that I couldn't look up to anyone else at that age.
7: I remember my first day of 6th grade. I remember the call the summer before from my mom saying that we were moving to a new house and I would go to a new school and go to a middle school and have a locker. I don't remember being sad. I remember thinking, "I'll have a locker! That is so cool!!" I felt like a big kid, even though at that point I was still more than a year younger than anyone else in my class. I remember loving it at first. And I remember the library. This memory gets bad pretty quick, so I'll move on. haha
8: I remember my last day of 6th grade. I had already gotten used to the idea of doing 6th grade again, and my last class of the day decided to go out and play kickball. Everyone was really nice to me, and I made a home run. The sun was shining, and it was everything that my year there had NOT been. I laughed at them and how fickle they were, and my mom came and got me out of school early. I ran from the field with a smile on my face and I don't remember but maybe I knew deep down that I would move on from that year and be ok. That's a good memory.
9: I remember my second first day of 6th grade. I met Tessa that day. I also remember having a big crush on Jordan Boyce that year. I made him a really girlied up letter asking him to the Valentines Dance, he said no. hahaha Ah, the things I remember. I remember my friend Rochelle and the time she liked a boy and we were at recess and he said to her, "You don't cuss?!?" And she said, "What the crap! I crapping cuss!" Ah Rochelle, he was shocked that you thought crap was a curse word. We in 6th grade are so over that word. It's not cool anymore. Poor Rochelle. haha
10: I remember my first day of Seventh grade. I remember that year was the year of boyfriends. I dated Nick long.Italian.last.name that year. He was so cute. We broke up after 2 weeks. There were other boys but I remember him the most. I also had a crush on Cameron that year. Ah Cameron. I wonder what happened to him. He was one year ahead of me. An 8th grader. hahaha We carpooled with his brother who was my age to and from school. I would walk to their apartment every morning from ours and think, "Oh Cameron. sigh" Life was good when I was friends with Cameron. haha
11: Further back, I remember when my Dad lived in Crescent City California. I remember watching the fireworks on the 4th of July over the ocean and making sand volcanoes that blew up with little fireworks. I remember going to Ocean World and petting the little Tiger Shark. I remember being so excited to pet it and love it that I put my hand in too fast and it turned around and snapped at me. From then on I have been terrified of sharks, but I used to want one as a pet. haha
12: I remember moving to Kansas. I wasn't happy about it at first. I missed my Kyhana and I missed Tessa and I missed Elko. What I didn't know was that one day I would miss Parsons more than anywhere else in the world. I miss the never ending sky and the magic of rain.
13: I remember rainstorms. I remember standing in them as they turned the world upside down. I remember the warmth of the rain and the cold all at the same time. I remember getting completely soaked and just loving every second. I remember dancing in it. I remember the thunder that would shake the world and sing me to sleep at night. I remember rainstorms.
14: I remember Colby Johnson. This woman is one big giant happy memory. I remember the first time we met and I never thought we would be friends. 7 years later and she is my sister through and through. We complete each other's sentences, we have lived each other's houses when it got too stressful to live at our own. She threw me a surprise party on my 18th birthday that I was completely clueless about even though apparently they had been talking about it right in front of me for weeks. We can look at each other and know what the other is thinking. We will be the old ladies in the nursing homes that only understand each other. "You wanna hand me that jello Colby?" "Nah." *Hands me her cane* "Thank you!" None of it will make sense, and that is exactly why we shall do it. (Actually, we already do that. Confusing people is the best when we are the only ones who understand. haha) I remember being the Wrestling Team Manager and Colby was the Wrestling Cheer Captain and we would look at the wrestlers from other schools and never care what their names were. "I love me some purple pants!" Ah such good times checking out wrestlers. I remember when I had my first kiss and I told Colby and we were happy and everyone was surprised. I am the pickiest person when it comes to guys, they would always make predictions, "Oh she'll date him. Definitely." I didn't date any of them. I dated Joe. I loved Joe. hahaha Me and Joe lasted a summer. That's a very happy memory even though I was crushed when it ended. Colby was there. I remember sharing clothes with Colby and it got to the point that our closets were interchangeable. We knew what was ours, but we didn't care much. I remember buying shoes with Colby. I remember all 3 years of prom. The first year we went in starry eyed and full of expectations. It sucked. The next year we did everything cheep and comfortable and we looked great and had the most amazing time. Senior year was stressful and people missing (BUT my hair looked amazing), but I had JP for a date and he is the funnest date ever so I still had a good time. Prom. Next I remember dating Felix. Colby stood by me through all of it. When I did things right, and when I made mistakes. When I was tricked and lied to and stabbed in the back. She was still there helping me get through it. After all of that, she was happy for me when I went back to him. She was happy for me because I was happy, even though any smart person could have been able to tell that it wouldn't last. (I was not a smart person.) I remember going to Coffeyville together with her sister and visiting the CCC campus and watching her audition for the music program and eating at Long John Silvers and that Chinese Buffet that we liked even though by the world's standards it probably isn't that great. (Prices are though. :) I could go on and on about memories with Colby, but that would make this blog EVEN LONGER. Which I know is what y'all want right?
15: I remember standing next to Gage's giant base speaker, right up against it, feeling the booms as they played loudly in Gage's basement. Gage, Michael, and Chase. I had such a big crush on Michael. Silly me. hahahaha But I loved that base. I still love me some base.
16: I remember when I first started dating Felix. Best 3 day weekend up to that point. Emphasis on up to that point. haha I thought it was the epitome of all my relationships. I laugh about it now, but it's a happy memory, until a week later. hahaha Waffles. ;D
17: I remember my high school graduation. I wore the 4 inch gold heels with that navy blue dress. So hot. =] And then we all just hung out and did whatever for the rest of the day. It was magic. We went where the wind blew us. In celebration of our new freedom. And then our class didn't have a party and we realized how lame it all was. So we made our own party. Yeah. =]
18: I remember the day I opened the email that said I was accepted to BYU. I had been waiting for months. Checking every day. It was to the point that no one actually thought I got in. My Dad kept asking me about my back-up plans, and of course I had them, but I didn't want to go to any of those places! I knew that BYU was where I was supposed to be. (As dramatic as that sounds) So when I got that email I printed it and told the world. I ran down hallways and shouted up to balconies. "Hey random person on the street?!?! Guess What!!! I GOT INTO BYU!!!" I showed my Dad and said something along the lines of, "How you like them apples Daddy?" So yeah, happy memory.
18: I remember SOAR. SOAR was a great time. =] It was when I realized so much about what I want with my future. One: I need to go to BYU as soon as I graduate from high school. No going to community college first. Two: I might not go on a mission, and that is OK. Three: I adore Hannah Rose-Nez. And she will be one of my best friends forever.
19: I remember last summer. It was one of the best summers a girl could ask for. Growing up and having fun. Learning my way around the 'big city'. It was amazing. I miss summer. Summer is always full of magic.
So this is really long. I really could go on and on because is THAT amazing and it has THAT many amazing memories, but it would never be complete. haha I would be typing forever. More memories are coming into my head even now. I could write 2 pages just on my memories with my Dad. So I'll stop before I write a novel. I'll save the novel for later. ;D
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