Ah The Weekend And All That I Beheld.

Song of the blog: Sun of a Gun_ Oh Land

So this 3 days weekend has been a doozie. I don't know how to spell doozy. I'm guessing. The spell check here on my computer wants me to put dozily, because that more of a word? What does dozily even mean? I shall Google it. Yay Google.

Alright, so apparently it means: In a dozy manner.

Not the correct word to describe my weekend, quite the opposite. It was anything but dozy.

It all began on Friday night. I came home and chatted with Eliza a bit, then watched a stupid movie, and then I went into the room and there is Eliza getting all dressed up. I said, "Wow, you look nice, where are you going?" Thinking it was a date, I was excited for her. Turns out her and my other Juliana and some other people are going to a Kesha concert that they made sure I wasn't aware of. Wow. Nice. Have I mentioned how much me and my roommates LOVE each other? We are just SO close!! There is so much LOVE in our home! Yeah! (The little boy is really going to punch the poor dog. He's acting. It's a ruse!!! Ah!)

So I went to a party that night. I got the thought to call Richard, but I was NOT ready to start dealing with him yet. My friend Karee had a sleep over in her apartment. There were tons of girls there, and I made tons of new friends. It was actually a lot of fun. And then the next morning they got me to go running with them. Me. Running. But I did it. We ran up to the temple, which isn't that long of a run, but it's ALL uphill. Yeah. I walked some of the way when I really felt like death was at hand. I loved it though. It's miracle, it actually made me WANT to go running on a regular basis. When we were done I felt like we hadn't run far enough. And then I realized what I was thinking and I was like, "AH!!! What am I thinking?" But yes, I enjoyed it. Crazy right?

And so my Saturday went on. I spent a lot of time with my new friends, and spent as much time as possible away from my wonderful roommates. Love them. Chelsea braided my hair, which was interesting. I don't look good with braided hair. Ha.

I also hung out with Richard on Saturday. It just got to the point that I couldn't fight with Heavenly Father anymore. I need to trust Him, and trust that He knows best. I was a little scared, but here is the surprise of the century: it only took me a few minutes to go back to being really comfortable with him. Since the moment I met Richard I never felt like I had to be anyone except who I am. There was just this automatic friendship there. It still surprised me that it was so easy to be friends with him. But it's good. I like it. But there is emphasis on the FRIENDS part. I hope he gets that. He said that he just got out of control when he said that, that his thoughts were getting the better of him, and he's trying to control it. I believe him because... Well I don't know really. It's this weird thing where I don't trust him very much but I trust God. Hard to explain.

We watched a movie at his place because he has a big T.V, and roommates that are home a lot. 500 Days of Summer. I LOVE that movie, and I happened to have it n DVD from Netflix, and he chose it. I had to laugh, because of the movie and how it kinda (not really, but kinda) reflects our own weird relationship. There was a moment near the end that I thought he was going to cry. It was cute. He wanted the guy to get the girl even though they say from the beginning that it's not a love story. But then I had to look away. I do NOT think he is cute. NOT. The opposite actually.... Ugh.

This. Is a Pen.

I'm tired of talking about Richard. The clearness of it all just confuses me. So I'm done with that now.

Have you ever gotten the feeling that suddenly you are no longer wanted in a group of people anymore? Well, this has happened, and they happen to be who I thought were some of my best friends. But you know what, I'm done. Normally I would be sad and such, but I always felt like I wasn't, I don't know, Hispanic enough. Cultured enough to be in their little group. I don't hate white people, I don't hate ANY people!!! If that means they don't like me then they can keep not liking me. I really don't care. I have other friends. Seriously. Ugh.

Anyway, I'm not all whiny, but I do have one more thing to whine about. hahaha My hard drive completely crashed on Sunday. I have a whole new one that Dell is sending me. I was on the phone with Dell for 6 hours on Sunday and for another hour on Monday morning. They tried to fix it, but his virus was just too fast. It crashed my whole hard drive in about 4 hours. Suck? Yeah. And before they could even look at it I had to buy a year of Software warranty. 200 dollars. Yeah. And then they couldn't even fix it. So they sent out a whole new dive, free because I had a Hardware warranty already, believe it or not. So today I payed even more money to buy an external hard drive so that this never happens again. Well, if it does I won't lose everything at least. Like now for instance, all my music is probably gone......... ALL of it. I can't fit a third of that music on my ipod, so my whole collection is gone. My friend Matthew said that he knows how to get it off, so today or tomorrow he's going to look at it and see what he can recover. I just want my music. I payed for all of it. I never download music illegally. EVER! So why did this happen?? Everything was fine when I went to church. I shut my laptop like I always do when I know I won't be using it for a while. Then my burn that I got that morning started hurting pretty bad so I went to get some ice real quick after sacrament meeting. I tuned on my laptop to listen to the song that I had just performed, alone, without much warning, in front of everyone, so that I could compare myself and what have you, and my laptop was being really slow then it was skipping, then it would stop working altogether for a minute, and then start again. I checked my other programs, all the same. So I called Dell. I know nothing about computers, I was NOT about to try and fix it myself. The rest you know.

So I know that was a lot of negative stuffz, but I decided something today. I love my life. All of it. I have lots of good friends who like me for who I am, I like that me and Richard can be friends as odd as that sounds, I love my family, and I have an amazing life that I wouldn't trade for anything. You couldn't pay me a million bucks to be someone else. So I guess even though there are holidays in fate land called Screw Heaven Day, and there are people who don't like me for whatever reasons they have (and they can go jump off of a cliff by the way) I don't care. I love it all anyway. I have an amazing life. =D

RANDOM QUOTES!!!!!

Any fine morning, a power saw can fell a tree that took a thousand years to grow. 

Edwin Teale

 

To believe with certainty we must begin by doubting.

King Stanislas I of Poland

 

When they discover the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it. 

Bernard Bailey