Song of the blog: Silence. For once. Ahg.
So in the last week, my life has changed so drastically that whatever life I had before seems far away and distant. I used to sleep in. I used to breath on a regular bases. I used to have all the time in the world to hang out with friends, write a blog every day, and write ridiculously long emails to jimi. Now my life is the opposite. I have to schedule breathing into my day. BREATHING! On most days I don't have time to eat until at least 6pm, sometimes 7pm. In about a month if I'm not in the best shape of my life then I'm suing my own body for breaking its own laws. I am constantly walking to running somwhere. And so in theory I should be losing some major weight. In theory. And I rarely have time to eat, as I stated above. I woke up at 7:30am this morning, and I had to rush, ponytail fail it, and rush out the door. My face is breaking out so badly that it should be illegal. It's not that bad, but it's bad for me. :(
And yet... I like it. My body constantly hurts, but I like the gogogog of it all. I never have nothing to do. Life is never boring. And I love it. I love that I have a job where I can help people out. I love that I go into classes and open up my laptop and take notes, and take in knowledge. I love that I actually study now. I never studied in High School! I love that I am getting into shape(theoretically). I really don't care that I don't have guys trailing after me, because honestly I don't have time for them! I think I'm becoming a work-a-holic. I love work. I was thinking today that I could just constantly be doing work and school, and never be social, and I would be happy. I would be learning, and I would talk to people at work. I would have perfect grades, I would get really good at my job. The more I think about it, the more I want to do it. Is that bad? Is it so horrible? It's not like I have a boyfriend, or a family, that I'm not coming home to, or that I would be ignoring. I could come home as soon as my day is over, do homework, study, watch some t.v. listen to some music, go to bed, wake up, go to school, go to work, come home. etc! I think it sounds fantastical. But I should do homework now, and eat the choco cake that is calling my name. :)
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