Don't Take This Wrong!!!!!

Song of the blog: Mouthwash_ Kate Nash

Today I was studying for my Humanities test, and I think it should be fairly easy. But while I was studying, I fell asleep. I had a dream that I was taking pictures of a little girl eating her first oreo. I woke up thinking, being a mom is going to rock.

Now since I know that someone is going to read this and think, "Uh oh." Fear not. This does not appear in my dreamscape for YEARS. Just because I don't want kids for a really long time, does not mean I never want them. Someday I will. And when that day comes, it will be fun. Right now is fun enough. haha

I think I will the kind of mom who constantly taking pictures of her kids. I mean, at a constant rate. I will need to invest in a good camera. I don't like scrapbooking very much, but in my dream I had a website dedicated to family memories. I know because I took a picture of the cookie and Lorilie apart first, so I could photoshop them into like a "v.s" thing. It all seems very silly to me now that I am awake, but in my dream I thought it was way cool. hahaha I think I will be all about recording their first experiences. Every one. First time sitting in grass. First time seeing an animal. First time on a swing set. First day of school, every year until they graduate. First time bowling. First time seeing the stars. I'll film that one. I am realizing lately how much I miss the stars. There aren't really any here. Stars are a wonderful part of life.

I think I will be crazy. I will have so much fun playing with my kids that when they are being loud and playing around the house you will not see me telling them to be quiet. Chances are I started it. hahahaha

I hope that when my kids are older, they will always come and talk to me. I want that perfect balance between friend and mom. Thats REALLY hard. But thats what I want to be. I want them to know the rules and the consequences, but also that I will love them no matter what, and if they get into trouble they can come to me for someone who will be straight with them. When they are older, I want to be their best friend as well as their mom.

I am also scared to death. I have always wondered, "What if I mess them up?" I look at my own parents and scared becomes terrified. But here is where I hope I don't make Nicole cry. When I think of the best mom I know, I think of Nicole. She is going to be all things for her kids. I see her boys and I know that they will grow up to be strong men who respect women because they respect their mother. I think of the Stripling Warriors and that if there was ever an encyclopedia picture of what they looked like as little tykes, Nicole's boys would be there. I look at little Cara and I think, "Man that girls insane! Perfect. ;D" She will never let anyone walk on her. She will be strong, and she won't settle for less than what she deserves. She won't get out their on her own and freeze like I did. She will know exactly what to do, when to do it, and how. She will probably be top of her class at every subject, including recess. haha I hope I'm not embaressing Nicole. Just had to write it. ;] I will never forget seeing Nicole play with her kids, I'll probably think of it every time I play with mine. haha I've never had a woman that I could really look to for an example of how to be, but over the years Nicole became that woman. Sorry. haha Great, I made myself cry. Bleh. Moving on.

So yeah. Weird dreams lead to weird blogs. But don't take this the wrong way anyone please??? I'm in NO hurry to have kids. Blah!!!!!

Alpine Village

Song of the blog: Anna Begins_ Counting Crows

www.myalpinevillage

This had to be it's own blog. Had to.

This is where I plan on living next year. Yes.

Isn't it beautiful?

I think it is.

Community Amenities

• Basketball Court
• Heated Swimming Pool
• Fitness Room
• Underground Parking - $40.00 (one-time fee)
• HD DIRECTV

• YoZone
• Wallaby's
• Sweet Connection (coming soon)
• PizzaPieCafe (coming soon)
   

Apartment Amenities

• $39 Flat Rate Utilities (Includes Cable and Internet)
   New Private Room Condominiums with 9 Foot Ceilings
• Key Locked Bedrooms for Added Security
• Great Telecommunications Package with Fiber Optics for 15 mbps High-Speed Internet and HD Digital Television

• Granite Countertops and Leather Couches
• Knotty Alder Cabinets
• 42" HD Flat Screen TV
• Washer/Dryer in Each Condo
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  So Yeah, you can be proud of your Heaven Faith Virtue. She is doing good for herself. =D

Watercooler, curly hair, and kind of a relief.

Song of the blog: Stop The World_ Demi Lovato

Thought I would put a child friendly artist on here. haha ;D

So I have water from the water cooler. It's nasty. Why am I drinking it? Because I am staharving. I forgoted my wallet at home, and so I am moneyless. And so I am foodless. Argh. I'm lucky I ate a cookie as I was leaving my apartment this morning. Otherwise I would have nothing in my stomach at all. This would fur realz suck. It fur realz sucks right now anywayz.

Another good song: Anyone Else But You_ Michael Cera and Ellen Page_ Juno Soundtrack.

I want to watch Juno now. And I have to ask, am I the only person on earth who thinks Michael Cera is hot? If I am, welp, I am in the world but not of the world in more ways. Yay.

I have curly hair today. I really don't know what is significant about that. I feel pretty. I AM pretty. Yeah.

Well here is a more substantial piece of information. I am not going to the poetry thing with Justin. I'm a little disappointed, but mostly relieved. Odd reaction? A little, but thats how life goes sometimes. I just kind of stopped wanting the flow. It no longer seems ideal. Eh. haha

In other news, my economist magazines are finally coming in, so now I can do more of the reading for my Current Events class. This is exciting. I love that class. Yay.

Last night I was in a very bad mood for some reason. Part of it was this whole thing with my academic warning. Just when I thought I was done with it, I get a voice mail saying that they hadn't realized I was  freshman and I actually need to go see ANOTHER counselor for ANOTHER meeting. This is getting REALLY annoying. I already have my appointment with Melba, my schol adviser, for today right after work, so I can show her my paperwork and get my schol money. Now I'm set back AGAIN because some people DIDN'T REALIZE I WAS A FRESHMAN!!!!! So last night I was in a bad mood. I saw that I had some cookies in the fridge that had yet to be baked, so I separated them and baked them thinking they would cheer me up. No dice. I took them out of the oven and just stared at them like, "Ugh! You aren't working!" So then I needed someone to eat them because they were just sitting there. I texted Matthew. I can always depend on him to eat my food. He probably knocked on my door 5 seconds after I texted him. haha We talked for like 3 hours about tons of random crap and then he had to go. It was like 11. haha I was feeling much better after he left. Way better. I love having good friends. So then I did my homework and went to bed.Yay.

Yummy.

Epic Win, pizza, and poetry.

Song of the blog: Creep_ Radiohead

So last night here is what went down.
4:00 Current Events, the guy next to me flirted with me the entire class, and he was cute. French major. ;D

5:00 got home and worked on my painting analysis paper, fell asleep on my bed, though I don't remember climbing up there, and then woke up when suddenly my laptop was playing boogie wonderland. What? Yeah. So I turned it off and went into the living room. It was half time of the BYU v.s San Diego game. I had slept through the first half. Ugh. So I watch it with Eliza and then Mikayla came in when there was about 5 minutes left. and she watched the rest of the game with us. Epic Win. Yes. 71 to 58 against an undefeated team. Oh yes.

I'm not sure why I put pizza in the title, but I did eat pizza today. The good kind at the creamery outlet next my office with the crust that is just perfect. Yum. Then I made everyone hungry when I came into work with it. Yesh.

Poetry: There is an open mic night at this place on Bulldog Blvd called the Coffee Pod. It has good reviews, but I'm not going for the coffee anyway. I'm going with Justin. Yeah. I'm starting though not to care where this goes with him. Is that horrible? I don't know. I'm eh about it. I just want to go to the open mic night. He's getting a car. Yeah.

Annnd Jordan is next to me speaking Spanish in an English accent. Hahahaha It's crackin me up! Oh yeah, and hopefully Friday Mr.Jordan and I will watch Cloverfield. He has to know about the flaming hobos. =D Woohoo Falamin Hobos!!

Random quotes!!!

You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act. 

Barbara Hall, A Summons to New Orleans, 2000

 

My home is not a place, it is people.

Lois McMaster Bujold, "Barrayar", 1991

Rice, and I hate computors sometimes.

Song of the blog: Eye Of A Needle_ Brandi Carlile

So today I am... I don't know. Content, and yet not at the same time. I kinda want to go home and sleep for the rest of the day, but I can't. That sucks. I have that thought all the time though, but today it's really extra suck for some reason. I want to turn on my ipod and just be gone from the world for an entire day. Do you have any idea how behind I would be if I did that? Very. I would take some random friday off and just go to Biology and go home and do that for the rest of the day, but I know if I do that then I will be restless, and it won't be like it is right now. Not the same.

So I just took this call from a man who is being threatened with a lawsuit from his son's high school. The school recieved a transcript that only had one completed course instead of two. I understand why he is frusterated, but that understanding does NOT equal it's cool if you are incredibly rude to me. Not. So I put on my customer service nice girl voice and took care of it the best I could. I can't say what the outcome was, but it will be taken care of. I am now simply stating that if there was ever a time that I wanted to punch someone through the phone, today was that time.

Welp, it's quiten time. I know that I made no sense today, but thats ok. It happens.

Tired, Cold, Hungry, But Happy.

Song of the blog: Stolen_ Dashboard Confessional

So today was pretty good. Last night was excellent though because I finally bought my plane tickets for this summer!!! AAHHH!!!!! I'm waay too excited about this. I want to jump up and down and scream, that is how over the top this excitement is. The ticket price went up a little from the last time I looked, so I spent about 181 on the first one. I'm hoping to be able to buy my return ticket in a month or two. I fly  YAY!!!!! I even figured out what to do with my stuff. My mom and Kurtis are going to rent me a storage thingy to keep it in. The smallest they have, because I really don't have that much stuff. I need to find one and give them the info. YAY!!!!!! Sidenote: I love Southwest airlines. Cheapest tickets I could get, and it still comes with 2 free checked bags. yesh.

I am sooo tired though. I think I could sleep for 3 days straight at this point. I need sleep!! I don't think I have gone to bed before 11 in weeks. And it's 11 if I'm lucky. But alas, it shall be for my good. For my edumacation and the like. But fur realz I could go for some shut eye.

Cold: It's snowing. I hate snow. I walked out of my English class today and what was my thought process? "Snow?! Shizniggles.... UGH!" And I mean it was SNOWING!! A lot. Snow is ew. So took out my umbrella and braved the cold. Then who should come up behind me but Justin? haha Of course he has to do that when I'm icking out at the sight of the snow. Of course. We had a nice chat. I asked him how he's been, he said he was sick all weekend, I said that sucks. What did you have? Sinus infection. Ew. But he's better now. Thats good. Hate being sick. You goin to the library? Yeah. Alright see you later. Bye. Nice conversation. I then went back to being grossed out by snow. I even put on my sunglasses so I could see less of it and pretend it was warm with the sun shining. It didn't really work, but a girl can dream. I hate snow.

Clowns.

Hungry: I have eaten only a twix and  string cheese today. Been running around like a chicken wih my head cut off trying to do everything. First I forgot my skirt and didn't realize until I was walking to work. So I had to go tell my boss that I was sending myself home to change before she could do it, and I couldn't even do the deed over the phone because guess what? I forgot that too. So then I go and catch the bus home and I plan on just going in, grabbing my skirt and phone, and running back to the bustop so I don't miss the bus back. The cosmos did not allow this. I get to my apartment and remember that my keys are missing, and no one is home so I go to the office to explain to them that my spare key is locked inside my apartment. The woman immediately signs us up for a lock change. Great. So then cute guy Timmy gets the master key and lets me into my apartment. I rush grab my skirt, look at the clock, I'm walking back to work. Welp, my umbrella got a lot of use today, at least it's cute. So through the snow I trudged. End result: I was an hour late to work, and I forgot my phone AGAIN. Yay.....?
Oh yeah, and I'm staharving!

But Happy. I am happy. haha =D I love my life. It's kind of great. ;]

Random Quotes!!!!

Reality is something you rise above. 

Liza Minnelli (1946-)

Human beings have an inalienable right to invent themselves.  Germaine Greer, O Magazine, September 2002

Printers, Bonding, and Orange Juice

Song of the blog: Richman_ 3OH3

Note to Nicole: I like this song, but I wouldn't listen to it with the kids around. I know, I'm a bad person and such.... Love you!

So get past my wonderful taste in music, and I can tell you about BYU's horrible taste in printing technology. It began with my printer deciding last night that it would only communicate with my laptop to inform it that it could not communicate. I go to print my Bio paper this morning to turn in and what happens this time? Not a single printing kiosk is working!!!! I go to two different buildings, try 3 different kiosks. Nothing. Not a single one was working. So though I actually did my homework, it matters not. I'm going to have to email it to him and pray that I get some kind of credit. Stupid printers.

Some good news though, lots of bonding time this weekend with my roommate Eliza. We got really girly watching Black Hawk Down, I even painted my nails. haha Then last night we took turns letting out all our anger at our exes. It actually was nice. I never used to let myself be mad at him, and because of that I still have a lot of things I'm mad at. haha I've never gotten over when he called me stalker. That hurt more than I can really explain. After everything we had been through he had the balls to say that? Everything that I had put up with, everything he had done to me? And then I forced myself to forgive him almost immediately so that I wouldn't hurt him back. Puhlease! There is still much anger over this. Eliza's ex is worse in some ways, better in others. Both just suck. Ugh, men. We also kind of talked about how now we don't really trust people. I mean, I trusted everything to Felix, and look where that got me? The difference is though that I still want someone to prove me wrong. I still have this need to believe in the fairytale. Sometimes I wish I could just give up, but I can't. Ugh, men! Point being though, me and Eliza bond over this. haha

And Orange Juice is just great. I ran out Saturday night and forgot to buy more. So all day yesterday I kinda went through withdrawals. I have some now though. Don't you worry bout a thang. ;D 

Oh yeah! And my life? Pretty good. =]

Random Quotes:

When dealing with the insane, the best method is to pretend to be sane.

 Hermann Hesse (1877 - 1962)

 

 

Don't do what you want. Do what you don't want. Do what you're trained not to want. Do the things that scare you the most.

Chuck Palahniuk (1962 - )