This is a song that is very close to my heart. It is my mom's song for Billy, and when I listen to it I know it will be my song for my sons. It just brings me peace. =)
Today is a good day. I feel happy today. =)
You remember DTR guy right? I found out over the weekend that he has a girlfriend. hahaha I was really mad at first. I wanted to punch him, and he deserves it. But then I was talking to Shaylie my dear for like 4 hours and my anger wayned and I realized that I'm not really hurt, I'm just mad that he lied to me. I hate being lied to, it's one thing that I cannot condone. Ever. So I will never speak to him. And if she knows what he is then she deserves him. I am finished, and so much the happier. =)
In other news, my old friend Jake is coming into town today. No one else calls him Jake, so I'm not sure if it's a good thing that I do. hahaha Point is, he's going to be in town this Thursday and Friday.
This. Is. A. Stove.
Jake is a story. I've known him since I was 16, and I've known his sisters since I was... 14 or 15? A long time. I went to girls camp and was a YCL with his sisters Jordan and Jessica. They became my good friends, especially Jessica. Jake bought me a milkshake after a stake dance once, and we went on one date before he left on his mission. I wrote him once, it wasn't much of a letter, and it never got to him anyway. so two years went by. I graduated high school and was dating Felix. It was right after Felix left, at a point that I was hopelessly in love and devoted to him, that Amberly asked me to go to a YSA activity and she and Rachel all but begged me to go. I finally decided to go, and I was texting Felix as I was getting into Amberly's car to tell him that I may not have service where I was going, cuz it was kind of in the middle of nowhere, and my phone died. Randomly. Without warning. I was a little panicy, like I said, I was very wrapped up in all things Felix back then. But I went, and I just held my phone the whole time like it had some kind of use. I saw my dear friend Kaitie Moon and she was talking to a very good looking guy. I walk up and we are all chatting and then good looking guy looks at me and says, "Really?? You don't know who I am???" "....Should I?" Well it was Jake. We caught up some that night and then I went back home to 12 messages from Felix. I called Nicole. She remembers this call. The next day or so. I was worried that I wasn't as committed to Felix as I thought. And other conversation we had. It was a good call.
This. Is. A. Microwave.
Then I moved here. weeeee...... And I broke up with Felix. A good thing. Literally 2 minutes or seconds or some very short time after I did it Jake was IMing me on Facebook. Hahahaha. Yeah. We talked on he phone a lot. I liked him but we lived 30 hours apart, just not reasonable. So we dated other people.
Well, now he is visiting. And in 19 days I will be home for 3 1/2 months. We've been talking on the phone a lot. I like him, I have liked him for a while I just never let myself Really like him. Mayhaps I will now? Now that I have the chance? I don't know. Who really knows about these things right? I'll just let it be what it is and if it's just friends then it's just friends, if it's more then it's more. I'm done thinking too much about dating. No more will I be caught up in something that doesn't exist. I will take it at face value, give chances where chances are deserved, and actions and words combined equal belief. Something I should have been living by my whole life but it took DTR guy to really make me realize.
And Jake calls. He actually calls. He is a sweet guy and he likes me. He is exactly the sweet guy that I was starting to wonder if I could attract. Well here he is. And I wonder if I deserve it.... I shouldn't wonder. I do deserve a guy who treats me right. Finally a guy who treats me how I should be treated. This is a good thing right? This is what I wanted. Right? Hmmm....
This. Is. A. Cup.
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