One sock, two sock, yellow sock, pink sock (with black zebra stripes, yeah)

Song of the blog: Shame For You_ Lily Allen

So my deposit for my apartment finally went through. Now I am more poor than poor can be. I hate it. I swear this semester was all about making things crash so that I had to spend all my money on random stupid stuff. Now I am living paycheck to paycheck. It's making me hate life.

This. Is. A. Wallet.

  And it's wicked cool.

I can't hate life. Life is too cool. But all this intensity lately is getting tiring. I really just want to go back to every day not boring life with nothing to report but pure happiness. Can I have that back now? Please? I just want life to flow, and I want everything to shine the way it did last week. Everything was great before this drama. Sigh. Don't get me wrong, I want to be with him and everything, but I just want to live my life with him in it. I don't want the constant drama. I feel like I'm back in high school. You couldn't pay me enough to go back! I want normal, I want routine, and I want him to be a part of my normal routine. That is really all I want. Why is that difficult?

This. Is. A. Footrest.

Interesting.

I know that it's not difficult. I have this battle going in my head where I think, "You promised to stick by him!" "Yeah well, he didn't promise me squat. What is keeping him from never talking to me again?" "Are you that unsure of this?" "No..." "I think you are." "It's him I'm not sure of..." Etc. Etc.
It goes on and on. It's very tiring. I'm exhausted. Tired of this whole thing, but the smallest chance that it could work keeps me hanging on. I'm ridiculous.

This. Is. A. Battery.

 And it's cool.

I decided what I'm going to do though. I'm going to just keep going on with life, not add to the drama, and just be my happy self. I'm a happy person, which is why this is all so exhausting. So I'll just keep being my happy self person. "Don't worry bout a thing, cuz every thing is gonna be alright!" That is something to live by my friends. Don't worry, because everything that happens, happens for a reason, and it is all leading us to our eternity. So why fear? Why worry? Why frown? Just smile. =] Just laugh. =D Just be happy, and life will work out. =]

This is such a childlike approach. Thats good right? =p

This. Is. A. Bottle.

Hmmm....

RANDOM QUOTES!!!!!!!!!!!

If you're afraid to let someone else see your weakness, take heart: Nobody's perfect. Besides, your attempts to hide your flaws don't work as well as you think they do. 

Julie Morgenstern, O Magazine, April 2004

 

The best effect of fine persons is felt after we have left their presence. 

Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882), Journals, 1839

 

It is a mistake to try to look too far ahead. The chain of destiny can only be grasped one link at a time.

Sir Winston Churchill (1874 - 1965)

 

Live simply that others may simply live. 

Mahatma Gandhi (1869 - 1948)

Every experience in life, everything with which we have come in contact in life, is a chisel which has been cutting away at our life statue, molding, modifying, shaping it. We are part of all we have met. Everything we have seen, heard, felt, or thought has had its hand in molding us, shaping us.

Orison Swett Marden (1850 - 1924)