Maybe it's me trying to make up for all the blogging I was supposed to be doing all summer, or maybe I just can't help but think as a I eat chinese food and stare at the diamond ring on my finger, but for some reason, tonight I am thinking aloud. Very loud. With one message. Trust In The Lord. So deep. I know.
I'm just sitting here, looking at this shiny thing that is the symbol of:
Taken.
Done Dating.
Found Prince Charming.
The Slipper Fit.
Bada Boom
Bada Bing
Put Her In White And Make Her Blush.
May 15th.
Done.
Finito.
Just the Beginning.
Just the beginning it is. I used to dream of this. No, I mean, I used to have dreams where random guys would propose to me and I wore white and never got to see the wedding. Then I woke up, shuddered, and moved on with life. These dreams varied from creative to horrible. In one I wore a dress from the 80's that was 10 sizes too big. Horrible. In another one the dress was perfect but the guy was addicted to picking up hookers. I never daydreamed about my wedding. I had nightmares about it. Funny thing it is.
This. Is. Cinderella.
The Lord stayed with me, he put some wonderful couples in my life, some real Fairy Tale Mascots. I've talked about some of them before. They are sweethearts, they are happy, they are in love years and years later. They never stop cherishing each other. Their marriages defy the physics of our modern world.
So am I still terrified? No. Not at all. Every day Jacob Willis shows me even more to love him for. Every day I find more reasons to marry him and spend the rest of eternity with him. Every day I see why they say this is magical and wonderful and above all things real. I will admit, I was a critic. I secretly thought at the end of every happily ended movie that it was fake wishful thinking of the world, and I wished it was real. I'm sad now for that version of me. I wasn't trusting the Lord, I wasn't trusting at all really.
Basically I feel like a changed woman. I still have my fears, everyone does, it's hard to get around that natural human tendency. It is my view of the world that has changed. I have always had hope for my life, always had ambitions, always had dreams and visions of what I am working toward and the wonderful place my life is in. Now I know that I don't have to do it alone. You don't know what that does to change you until you experience it.
Necessary song: First Day Of My Life_ Bright Eyes
This. Is. Our. Temple.
Random Quotes!!!!!!
"If there was one word in the dictionary to describe you with, it would be sweet. You are one of the sweetest people I have ever met." Jacob Willis to me today. =)
"In you I have found a best friend. You are always there for me, to listen when I complain and reassure me that life gets better, to let me know when I'm sad that there are elephants somewhere that are weeping as well, and to make me laugh." Jacob Willis in the letter he gave me before he proposed. =)
To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others.
Anne-Sophie Swetchine
Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be.
Anton Chekhov (1860 - 1904)
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970), Marriage and Morals (1929) ch. 19
Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves.
Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662)
No funny pages this time. Sorry Friends. =)
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