Song of the blog: Whatever is playing in the background of the movie I'm watching. Notting Hill
So this has been one of those days where I think, "If I had a blog, I would have nothing to write about today." Well, now I DO have a blog. And I'm now going to commence trying to sqeeze some juice out of my day.
I had a job interview yesterday. Hence the job interview entry below. But today I went to see my scholorship counsler to talk about changing my schedule. I wasn't sure the best way to do it. But now it's changed, and I have 4 hours of work time every week day. So I emailed the girl that did the interviews and now all I can do is wait. Then I walked home and Katie Ann called me. I love that girl. ;D But goodness it was hot outside! And not even any sprinklers were on for me to walk through. Dreadfull. I love walking through sprinklers. I also love walking into my apartment with the air conditioning and taking off my sweater that I was carazy for wearing and going to my bedroom to scan a copy of my schedule to email to the girl who interviewed me. That last part was only enjoyable because I am so very desperate for a job. And now I'm on my third great movie of the day. I watched Barefoot In The Park with my roomates. Then I watched The Illusionist with my friend Tiana. I've never seen it to the end, and I did today. Excellent movie that is. Now it is one of my favorites. It was mind blowing! Or maybe I'm just easily amused, but I loved it! Now I am near the end of Notting Hill. And this movie is a classic. I remember sitting on the couch watching it with my mom when I was like...13 or some small age like that. One of favorite quotes:
"Happiness isn't happiness without a violin playing goat."
Classic. :)
He is now begging for her to stay with him, and now they are just staring at eachother. :) And romantic music is playing in the background. This is all so fake, but I love it. That will never actually happen. In reality, even if the guy does realize he has made a mistake and wants you back, you're lucky if he fights for you. Cheers to you lucky girls with dream guys. Not only that, but I'll never have my own press conference so this scene specifically is impossible. hahaha
Love is tricky I think. You can fall in love. You can get caught up in the beauty of it. You can give your whole heart. You can fall asleep watching movies with them and wake up with their arms around you. You wake up a completely different person I think. There's something about falling asleep with someone that changes you. I don't mean anything physical. I just mean putting in a movie and waking up as the credits roll even. Or hours later and finding a blanket to take back to the couch so the both of you don't get cold. Thats special. But after all of that. After fights, and making up, and getting through so much. In the end, it just ends. No matter how much you wish it didn't have to. In the end there always ends up being a whole ocean between you that makes it impossible. Figuratively speaking of course..... And then you have to just get over it. You have to pack up all those feelings, all the pieces of yourself, and move on. Find someone new. How do we do it? All the time? How do we just pack up and move on? It seems so sureal to me. But thats why I'm only to get married once. Marriage isn't something you say, "Hey, lets give it a go." It's promising to spend the rest of eternity with someone. Thats not a little thing. Thats kind of on the huge side. So I'm sitting here watching Notting Hill, and I think to myself. "How do they know? How do they look at eachother and just know that 5 or 10 or 20 years from now, they will still love eachother more than anything else?" I'm sure the romantic music that is always in the backround helps a little. But I don't have that to work with. hahaha But it's not something I need to worry about right now. I'm sure the characters in the movie live happily after. I'm sure that they fight and slam doors. And then slowly open the door back up, apologize, and go to sleep loving eachother. Me, I'm going to start by getting a job. And a paycheck. And paying for my half of the So You Think You Can Dance tickets. And getting through my first sememster of college. Right now, that is my life. Paying bills and getting closer to my career. Such is the life of Heaven. Peace out.
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